youmakeme-afool♥

The sweet and the bitter.

2012-02-08T00:05:00.001+08:00

還要一起衝還要一起瘋
踢開了迷惑再跳著感動

Hello, it seems like i've been blogging lesser and lesser these days either because i'm too busy, or i'm simply too lazy.. The random 'feel' that makes me blog stupid things hasn't been with me anymore! However, it may be a good thing, since it'll save this space from being bombarded with nonsensical stuff! xD So, as usual, i'm going to talk about my boring days just to keep a memory of them, which i've always been doing with this space, which i'd trackback and laugh at myself and recall all the memories sometimes (: Let's startttt! I'll date the days in the beginning of the paragraph kay, it makes it flow better i guess? Better than having all the days and events mixed up x:

200112, Last day of work at "Squeeze 'N' Toss", which is the cafe i've been working at for two months! I've made a new friend there, who was my only colleague, Joethy! Hahaha, okay she's a Hottest (Fyi, hottest is the name for 2pm fans) And yep, my boss, Selena, who's also a really nice girl!

210112, a short date with Jiahui to rws to accompany her to get her cosmetics. This woman grow up already, hahaha, that's what i can say la (: But it ended up like i was the only one not growing up, seeing everyone around me getting more and more matured.. hmm, and i'm the January baby? /: Hahaa, oh well, something funny and really embarrassing happened, but maybe i shouldn't like laugh about it here xD Can only say that.. Jiahui's mum is really popular! Thereafter, we went to vivo's starbucks to chill and the national geographic place to sit and talk, then went home for dinner!

220112, Chinese New Year Eve, which is 除夕夜. (: Went to grandma's house for reunion bbq+steamboat dinner, yes it was shoooo fattening but hmm, not like it's the first day i'm fat xD

230112, Happy Chinese New Year. Hahah it's so awkward when it's already 十六.. -.- Anyway, it was a really no feel cny this year. First day of Cny, where everyone would look really pretty and handsome, i was in my Beast first Asia fanmeet shirt + Shorts + Slippers + Specs, visiting my grandmother's house. Lol, and yep, just my mum's side (: Also, another thing that added on to the first day of Cny which everyone enjoys, is that 23rd, was exactly the day that i don't want to remember, the day i first felt such pain in my heart.. Well.. and yep, my Second day of Cny was worse, since i camped at home the whole day except for going downstairs for kfc dinner /: How boringggg~

250112, went to 春到河畔 with my parents and eldest sister. Randomly took the flyer, for the first time, yes after so long, Didn't really have any feeling throughout hahaaha, but i snapped a few pictures of the landscape with my lousy phone camera. At least they look.. acceptable, i hope? Highlight of the day, was 4D that day! Asked my sister to help me buy my usual 2 sets of numbers (7585, 2101), plus another set that day (6195). Guess what.. to hell with Singapore Pools, 7545 and 8545 came out.. ): Okay focus on "7585" being bought ): Why can't the 7545's 4 become 8, and why can't the 45s just disappear and allow 75 and 85 to form 7585?! Lol, well.. 傳説中的跳字.. /: It was so close.. Aish!

260112, 棒棒堂小巨蛋演唱會四周年紀念. ): It was 2008 when all the dreams were bright, when everyone was working hard as one. As time passes by, those days, could only be left as memories, for us to remember and recall.. Guess it wouldn't come back to us in the future.. ): However, those precious memories, will stay deep within my heart for years and years to come. (: Anyway, met up with Junyi and Jiahui to catch 'We not naughty' at the cathay! It's a great movie i should say, especially for Singaporeans, since it'll be really relatable to most of us!

270112, went over to Xiaohan's place in the evening to 拜年, despite not bringing oranges /: Not forgetting how i coincidentally met Shaowei on the bus to her house, and how he kinda led me to the right bus stop to alight xD Hahaha, had some fun gambling, talking and such there before leaving for home that night. Reached home at some 10+, changed, then went to Shaowei's house (: Tonned over with Shaowei, Chunen, Chaisim, Junwei, Kaixin. Anyway we failed to eat Kkm in the morning cause the stall wasn't open D: So, we ended up walking all the way back to Shao's place to eat Csm which expands into Chaisim mian xD And also, Popcorn Chicken that we picked up otw from Junwei's house! Reached home at like.. 7am in the morning the next day, like cui only /:

280112, Slept from around 8 till 10am, before waking up to get ready to go to Ecp with redcamp peeps! Can only say that, idk why redcamp outing is always set on the day after my tonning with grps buddies /: Always make me so freakin' tired.. Cycling, talking, games, etc with them (: Let's not talk about the going home part plus my father going crazy part that night..

290112, One year anniversary from SS3 Singapore first show (: Okay, this reminds me of SS4 this 18th and 19th feb, which i haven't gotten the tickets, and am kinda prepared to miss it ): Kay, i swear this is so super saddening but i can't blame it on anyone or anything other than myself being poor.. /:

300112, MOE sent me my posting results text at 6.30am instead of 8am /: Was like peeping at the text with only half an eye open.. "MOE: POH SOO CHE, you are posted to NGEE ANN POLY, CHINESE MEDIA & COMMUNICATION (N88) under 2012 JAE" I didn't know how to feel. It was my second choice, with my first choice as Arts Business Management. Anyway i ended up appealing to my first choice again after much consideration. It's not that i don't like the course, CMC, i've been wanting to get into it since i knew this course existed a few years back. However, i really don't think it'd be a good idea to throw myself into a Chinese education environment, especially when i could predict how many people from china there would be in the course.. So yep, i'm trying again for ABM, just because i'm afraid.. If i still can't get into ABM, then sua, i'll live a good life in CMC. Anyway, went to catch Viral Factor with Jiahui at Westmall that night! Okay it was kinda disappointing since i thought the movie would be better than how it was.. /: It's just exciting, but now really interesting, so yeh x:

310112, Went to get a job from where zihui recommended (: Long story but yep, secured it. Funny how 煜國際 main admins can be so two-faced.. They come to you when they need your help, but when you need their help, they hide like they're some wanted criminal.. Erhh./: And yep, highlight of the day, #FTIslandSeverely music video (: Do watch it, listen to it, and feel it! Honggi's voice is totally great and he's so charming! :D

020212, Went for job training with Yinghui (: Kay it was a bit stupid but yep, we successfully went through it!

Prepare for the exciting part LOL! Another [YOUCANCHOOSETOIGNORE] part ahead! (:
But i think you should just read it xD Since.. it's going to be in Chinese! It's been like 10 years since i've blogged in chinese, like really.. So yep, shall have this whole part in Chinese. :D

030212, 七點鈡起身只爲了讓自己能夠早一點到機場去等待. 搭了整整兩個小時的地鐵, 花了$1.96, 終于在十點多到達了新加坡章宜機場. 到了第一搭客廳, 只見普普通通沒什麽特別的機場. 一旁擺著幾個欄杆(?) Okay, barricade. 和Stephanie到員工餐廳吃了午餐侯繼續到搭客廳候著Eva Air, BR225的到來. 我能說什麽? 只能說, 這一次接機是我最最最遺憾的一次. 感覺上, 我浪費了一個很棒很棒的機會.. 所以我其實很後悔, 很遺憾.. ): 原因是這一次, 他們很默默的抵達新加坡, 沒有並沒有擺起, 也沒有任何保安.. 多麽難得的機會吖, 我卻把它給浪費了, 把機會給毀了.. ): 遺憾吖.. 唉.. 更何況他們在那樣的情況下還得走挺長一段路.. 更是浪費 ): 而且這是我有史以來, 他們來新加坡四次后我第一次接他們的機, 劉俊緯卻因在内地拍戲而缺席! 唉.. 在接機之後我也乖乖地再搭了兩個小時的地鐵回家..然後在傍晚七點再出門去和Steph, Nicole和Cindy吃了晚餐后再到Cindy家裡去過夜! 那晚我頂著頭痛肚子痛和疲累完成了威廉阿緯和敖犬的信, 最後還是把楊奇煜的信留到隔天再寫.. /:

040212, 所以吖, 那一晚從三點睡到五點, 兩個鐘頭後, 便和Steph一同出發到IMM去排隊. 經過無數個可惡的障礙, 終于在6.29到了IMM排隊. 幸好我們還是第一個, 不然我們真的會哭死氣死後悔死! xD 又到了無聊打發時間的時候了! 吃早餐, 寫信, 聼歌, 放空, 等等~ 不知不覺Jasmine就到了, 再不知不覺, Cindy和Nicole也到了~ 然後, 這個無聊打發時間時段又繼續下去.. 直到兩點多, 工作人員才把我們帶到四樓排隊, 之後三點多再把我們帶道簽唱會地點, Garden Plaza, 讓我們在那兒定下來在繼續等待LOLLIPOPF的到來 (: 一整天下來的第一件正經事, 找人幫忙拿和舉煜國際的板板, 還有拿著板子拍照, 讓我對煜國際有個交待, 哈哈 xD 之後也只能等待活動開始了! 首先是主持人Yes93.3偉彬出場, 然後是那個不知道什麽的問答題的~ 哈哈哈, 超簡單的問答題 -.- 整個主持人還沒念完題目全場都能回答的問題 /: 還有那一個我和Steph一起喊"雞巴曹, 曹雞巴, 曹林老師, 曹林呆", 因爲問題是敖犬在那些年的角色是什麽? 哈哈老曹曹國勝和前面那一堆 xD 好喇, 總之, 那天簽唱會我和Steph都很快樂, 因爲楊奇煜和敖犬一直時不時地看過來, 劉俊緯"回復"了我們倆, 威廉向我們微笑~ 哈哈哈好讚 xD 而且跟往常一樣, 我又做了很不同于一般的事情.. /: 這一次, 在沒有辦法的情況下我居然.. 唱歌了. 超糗的說.. 但是楊奇煜理我耶!! 他整個看著我笑, 然後我就感到很沒有臉的融化了.. 爲什麽會這樣吖! 但是, 雖然我叫偉彬幫他們遞Mic她卻沒有, 但是楊奇煜真的有在唱耶, 被我抓到了xD 我真的不知道要怎麽用言語來説明我到底是用著什麽樣的心情感受去面對他們的 /: 我真的很開心又很緊張又很擔心.. 總之一言難盡! 何況是各別是個月后再次相遇, 真的, 那種感覺怪怪的.. 這一切就這麽的奇妙! 終于, 在台下待了好一會兒後終于肯上台了 xD 這一次是阿緯>小煜>敖犬>威廉, 揚奇煜不再坐最後了 ): 但是這一次我依然記得把信都交給了他們! 雖然我忘了幫我的信拍張照, 但我記得阿緯的信封是粉紅色, 小煜黃色, 敖犬膚色, 威廉藍色! 而且話説我這次比十個月前的上一次還要緊張耶.. 我整個有點慌 x: 只記得我和阿緯說了"阿緯辛苦你了!", 問小煜"嗯, 你可以幫我簽板板嗎?", 然後他停頓了幾秒後拒絕我了.. ): "嗯..這個不可以幫你耶" 但是他笑得很可愛所以我原諒他哈哈哈xD 然後莊敖犬那兒就很可惜匆匆而去.. 然後跟威廉說"帶會見噢"! 然後下台後就在後面看著這四位男孩 (: 然後儅他們要離開現場時, 我和Steph原本要跑到停車場去的, 但因爲時閒不足, 再加上他們離開的速度和我們差不多, 所以我們倆就在只有我們倆的一旁向他們揮手. 但是楊奇煜依舊自走自的走太快沒看見, 然後敖犬忙著樂活的轉圈圈, 所以只有阿緯和威廉見到我們, 和我們揮手xD 哈哈哈! 事後Cindy和Jasmine就先行離開了,留下我,Steph和Nicole, 到麥儅勞去吃晚餐之後再搭德士到新傳媒的攝影棚去參與繽紛萬千在晟菘這個蠢節目的錄影哈哈哈xD 超期待LOLLIPOPF的出場~ 首先是出場訪問, 訪問之後居然只有阿緯走對路囘後台xD 笨蛋小煜威廉和敖犬都走錯了說~ 而且之後出場表演時壞蛋敖犬阿緯和小煜又騗了威廉, 超珍貴的畫面噗哈!

050212, 又是一個讓我感到很遺憾, 超後悔的日子.. 我居然因爲睡覺, 因爲無法確定他們的班機, 所以錯過了能夠送機的機會我真的很想把自己殺掉!! D: 楊奇煜還給我做出那麽可愛的事!! 氣死了 ): 算了.. ):

好, 如果我知道要怎麽把心情以語言表達出來我再來發個.. LOLLIPOPF電司新加坡宣傳之我的心情篇好了/: 就這樣~ 現在事讓照片和影頻來説話, 表達囖!

他們幾位那幾天發的微博(:

天亮之後才拍的! 沒有錯, 整拍在它旁邊 xD

簽唱會舞台, 無Zoom.

LOLLIPOPF DANCE.

新朋友舊朋友~ 之後我還是擧自己的板板喇!

主持人偉彬

洞洞裝莊濠全~

楊奇煜!

煜緯

哈哈這一刻被我抓到了! 帥~

愛愛舞中的威廉和敖犬

主唱小煜xD

辛苦你了, 劉俊緯!

電思Ending Pose!

莊敖犬那是什麽表情~

超熱的你, 辛苦了.. ):

威廉也熱了~

好認真!

帥xD

和我的板板和主持人偉彬!
唉, 我真邋遢..

SSS舞台

我的快樂餐玩具! 超可愛的吧~

SSS如門票

看那三個走錯路的笨蛋xD

楊奇煜的小頭

敖犬上車中

敖犬Mic壞

然後阿緯Mic壞..

好快樂的一張!

阿緯說老曹比敖犬帥所以被踢xD

看笨蛋莊濠全!

"要下去嗎?" 哈哈哈

愛愛舞超屌!

好珍貴(:

真難以相信我在幾天前的那一天, 看見愛愛舞在我的面前出現四次! 好讚(: 謝謝這四個天使給我的美好回憶, 謝謝! 下次見囖~

It's another new beginning.

2012-01-18T21:25:00.002+08:00

再發現愛不代表一切在真心也會被阻絕
這世界天天有歸類隨時會爆裂

Seems like it's been quite some time since i last posted, again x: Hello people, i've got so much to say! xD Anyway, i'd have to blog about my life from 311211 till now, yeh.. That's such a long time ago hahahaaa~ i bet i'll just briefly run through the not so eventful days la, and yep, shall end with the various pictures again (:

Went for countdown with Jiahui, Jiaen, Fione and Lenise on the 31st (: Met Lenise and Fione at bugis first to walk/shop while waiting for Jiahui and Jiaen to end work, and yeshhh, all of us got something for ourselves xD Oh, and this yaying actually called me all the way from guangzhou while i was at bugis! For what? Ask if SS4 ticket sales had started LOL. Horrible woman, she could just weibo me O: Kay, anyway we went to meet Jiahui and Jiaen and went to marina area and found a spot beside Fullerton Bay hotel, which was the only empty spot we could find. Killed time by taking pictures after pictures LOLOLOL (: Watched the fireworks when it was 00 00, then had a hard time getting home.. -.- The going home thingy was such a turn off la! Can still remember how Jiahui and Jiaen bankai each other, oooooops xD I was lucky that lrt was extended till 3+ am that day! Stayed awake till 6+/7+ am since i was too awake to sleep, but i was afraid my mum would start scolding me on the first day of 2012 because i didn't sleep for the night.. Anyway, who cares about new year, i only knew it was sungmin's birthday xD HAHAHAAA Kay, nothing much, it has passed for like so long already.

Frankly, i don't remember what happened from 1st (after i woke up) till forth.. or there wasn't really anything? /: Well, 5th was 小樂吳思賢 and YangYoseob's birthday! :D Yangseobyangseob LOL. Went to SP's open house with Zihui after work that day! Nothing much actually, since SP's open house was indeed boring.. I almost slept just by listening to the introduction of the business courses, that's how bad it was -.- Went Clementi Mall for subway dinner after the open house~ Then, yes i damn proud of myself, after so long not squeezing the peak hour bus from clementi, i was still able to get to the spot the bus door would stop (Yes like in my face) LOL! xD

6th, yeshhh, it was my birthday #shyyyyyyy xD Went to work till afternoon, then went to jp to meet Clarice and Limhui before proceeding to Junyi's house. (: Hahahaa, i want to laugh at their fail "go to the wherewherewhere to walk and buy things first" cause i immediately translated it to "Orh okay, waste time ah" /: Kay, i know damn spoilsport but i'm smartttt~ Hahaha but actually nothing much.. They were just wrapping the present in 8 layers /: Well, thanks to them all, junyi sweeting limhui clarice jiaen, esp mamatew for baking the cake even though the crust failed hahahahaaa! (: Anyway i found a way to annoy jiaen, and i like it a lot~~ "uhhh~ troublemaker" (in Hyuna's smexy voice) HAHAAA~ Chionged to Warren to have dinner with my parents and pokehuey and ivansim. Damn stupid, i was the only person in the shuttle service other than the driver, and he kept talking to me.. #thatawkwardmoment ): Went home after dinner, showered and killed some time before going out to bpp to meet chunen, shaowei, gloria, kaixin, chaisim, and jiaqi who join later (: Yes, i'm going to skip the "kill time" thingy, cause it was so very horrible.. Camped at macs to chat about everything we could, thanks to the noisy moodmaker, shao xD LOL, i want to see his priceless expression again xD Shall skip all the freaking embarrassing thing that happened to me la, wah dk face put where D: Anyway, it feels so great to have such gathering with grps people (: I could feel the difference between primary and secondary school so very much, i swear the feeling is so different.. I feel so much more for my primary school friends despite all the drifting apart and such ): Talked about the grps forth floor girls toilet thingy again since kaixin gloria jiaqi weren't around the last time we talked about it, like scary only x: Shermaine came when it was around 4+ am, but didn't really talk to us much.. ): Went to have kkm for supper/breakfast(?) after oce left first. Kay, then walked home with chaisim again, #foreverawkward LOL! Reached home at 6+am, and didn't intend to sleep at first, but still took a nap for 1+ hour before waking up again to get ready to go for NP's open house with the redcamp girls at 9+. Conclusion, np's open house was more fun than sp's #justsaying. Missed the kpop dance competition that jiahao told me about to go for picnic with manjusri(?) guys and marina barrage. ): But k la, actually it was quite fun, just that i was really tired.. and that i reached home at only 10+ pm at night.. didn't remember what time i slept but yes, i was awake from 8am on the 6th till the time i slept on the 7th, with only a 1hour nap.. -.- Cui max.

9th was the release of Olevel results, and Bernard's birthday! (: I think i ain't human, cause i didn't feel nervous/anxious/worried/scared at all -.- I thought i'd be when i sit in the hall, but i ended up feeling nothing. So, i didn't feel anything at all before, during and after i received my results! /: Weird. Anyway, L1R5-13, L1R2B2-A/B - 11, L1R2B2-C/D - 13. Yep, it's around where i've expected to be so yep, not very happy but not disappointed as well (: Killed time at clementi mall with Junyi sweeting and kimberly before going home. Spent eventless days again, for the next few days if i didn't remember wrongly.. Submitted JAE only on 12th night! All choices Poly, Np and Sp only.

Met Yaying after work on friday the 13th. And this woman got lost by just taking the mrt D: Went kbox at cineleisure, which yaying treated me using her brother's card, so ya actually it was her brother that treated me LOL! Walked from cineleisure to ion then back to scape again after the kbox session cause both of us wanted to go home. LOL. Anyway, there was this kpop dance gathering in scape that night, and yep, it was great (: Yaying even went onto the dancefloor yoxz! (Y) Well, i felt so horrible after that though, so i started to emo, well, so many things were running through my mind.. sigh.

Had a date with jiahui on the 14th, which was Leeyi's birthday! (: Both of us are #boredofsingapore -.- Like i swear there's nothing much in Singapore.. ): Got myself new shoes, which was my only aim for the day cause i don't have enough money for any other things LOL! Jiahui the dbs girl got quite a few stuff though! (: As usual, had a good chat with her before proceeding home. Oh, and i got bankai-ed by my dad like ohwell fml idrc about you? Kay, it was because i asked him for this week's allowance.. So he asked me where i were to go, then i said i'm going for a concert, and blablablaaa, so he started to scold me, but idrc about him so i attitude him like free. -.-

WARNING, YOU CAN CHOOSE TO IGNORE THIS HUGE CHUNK BELOW IF YOU'RE NOT INTERESTED. Pictures will be below it though.

[YOUCANCHOOSETOIGNORE]

Finalllllly! :D 15012012. Met Kimberlytan and Glenda at 2+ and went to Max pavilion to queue for PLAY!FTIsland Concert merchandise, but apparantly the queue started with us -.- Cause people who were there were all queueing for the moshpit but not the merchandise LOL! Anyway, there was some fanclub people promoting themselves by having some "angbao draw" LOL and i got a double sided photocard of Jonghoon and Jaejin! :D Oh, and we reached while they were rehearsing inside, so we heard them from a corner~ Anyway, for merch, i got the shirt, lightstick, and buckle bracelet! Was considering the cape so very much, but it was 50bucks, but guess what, there were only 2 capes. They only brought in two of them.. Guess who regretted so much ): Cause if i were to buy it, i'd be the one of the two of the few thousand in Singapore that owns the cape! D: Damn emo, i swear.. but forget it, 過去就讓他過去!
Went back to expo after getting out merchandises and waited till 5pm, then we went back to Max pavilion to enter the venue (: FML WE WERE B3 ROW 2. GUESS HOW NEAR WE WERE TO THE EXTENDED STAGE! Kay, although it's just the extended stage but not the main stage /: but being row 2 was such a turn off.. especially when the people at row 1 weren't even primadonnas -.- Keep trolling.. Such asses. /: Well, but what's more important was the concert itself (: It was really really really great, and omg la, they used English for the whole concert la! Their english really improved a lot, and their weird accent is always so adorable hehehee xD Funny how i actually listened to honggi when he asked us to sit, which i sat down almost immediately, but never listened when the securities asked me to x: LOL xD Also, hongg's "You guys are so fucking cool!" xD I swear only Chocoball members dare to swear in public hehehe! However, i really hate those reports in singapore's articles saying that his swearing was the main point of the concert. Like just stfu and fuck off la, thanks uh. It's either you were deaf to not hear their music, or you didn't have a heart to feel for their music. I was like so worried for honggi.. His voice kept breaking and he went down for some of the high notes ): It was understandable, cause he had a concert the night before, and he almost fainted. He even had to get a jab at the hospital before the concert in Singapore started off.. He simply wasn't feeling well, but i still went all crazy and spastic during the concert (: How precious can these treasures be? (:
Jonghoon's guitar solo was even more charming than his pretty face. It's like, a bomb dropped in to my heart or something whenever he had his solo part! No joke, no exaggeration. Minhwan's voice during Confession, the whole max pavilion went crazy, i swear! Who dares to say our drummer can't sing? HAHA IN YOUR FACE! Jaejin look that needs a stylist? xD How adorable can this boy be hahahaa, and i really love to see him with his blue bass that has been with him for such a long time (: Jaejin's voice too, another soothing and lovely voice from our treasures! Seunghyun and his wonderful smile, i felt weird when he rapped wonbin's part during lovesick, i know he can never replace wonbin, but i also know that he isn't a replacement of wonbin cause he's seunghyun (: Am proud of bob okayyy~ And lastly, our hongstar that went all around the stage, singing, bouncing, running, shouting, headbanging (: It's painful to think that he did all that when he was really unwell, but it was all those that brought the concert into another level isn't it? (: Hopefully he's well by now..
Last highlight of the night, is that these boys are simply too sweet to be unloved. They actually took out their phones and showed their pictures to wave to us through the tinted windows of the van because they knew we wouldn't be able to see them if they didn't do that! :D

16012012, overslept and was late to queue for the poster for the autograph session at City Sqaure Mall /: Thanks to yujia, we weren't too far at the back /: Anyway i reached before 10am, and had to queue for the poster which was given out at 3pm -.- Did whatever i could to keep myself occupied, and thankfully, time didn't pass too slowly~ After getting the poster, we had to wait again till 6+pm for the event to start.. but i don't really mind hehee! Wasn't really near the stage though ):
Well.. It was the worst autograph session i've ever went to.. maybe it's because it's korean pop? /: It sucked.. and i feel so fucking bad to minhwan.. I hate myself for that, but i hate the security even more.. Well, i only said "민환씨 안녕하세요!" to him when i reached him, then my mind went blank and i could only look at him as he signed my poster.. I wanted to ask him for aegyo, but my mind went blank, then i blurted out "hug?" when i knew he wouldn't -.- but as he went "i'm sorry" (yes he rejected me D:) , he was only at "I'm sor-" then that fucking security just grabbed my shoulders and pulled me off.. Someone needs to tell me why he had to be so rude and rough.. -.- #FuckingAnnoyed Anyway i went offstage and started crying /: I'm thankful to some of the girls there that i didn't know but consoled me, so heartwarming (: but argh, i still feel damn bad for minhwan.. like even until this very moment i'm typing out this post ): 민환씨, 정말 미안해요.. 용서해주세요 ):
Stalked them after the autograph session! They went Manna for dinner again.. LOL! If you know Manna, you'll know that the VIP room is right beside the washroom. So i was going to the toilet, but i took the chance to take a picture of their shoes which were placed at the doorstep of the VIP room, especially honggi's since he tweeted it the night before! Then suddenly, the door opened, then Jaejin was like right in front of me! I was stunned for a moment or two, before i waved at him.. However, he just smiled a little, nod, and looked away. ): Kay i swear i felt all horrible once again.. At that moment, i was feeling bad for both Minhwan and Jaejin already D: Fml so much plus i was the only one there.. but omg, Jaejin was just sitting beside the door! (Oh, and the door opened cause they wanted to order another cup of ice lemon tea /:) Then i really went to the toilet, but before i went in, Glenda came, and told me Honggi just came out of the room and is coming to the toilet. Like fml omg, but obviously the security had to follow him. I totally watched him go into the male toilet for a corner.. Then when he came out of the toilet, we called out to him, but he just turned back and said "안녕~" in a sien tone. Guess who's feeling bad x3 that moment.. /:
I really hope they don't think that i'm a harassing shit.. Cause i'm not.. and idw to be either ):
Managed to pass honggi my letter which also has a packet of strepsils in it, plus a box of dequadin while they were leaving the restaurant, but i think i almost died thanks to the weird person beside me who almost strangled me.. -.- Continued chasing them, and seunghyun showed us from his window that he was watching anime (How adorable xD), while some of them were sleeping.. Went chasing their van around the airport once in out van, (they were obviously going to depart that night), and went chasing from the t2 departure hall to the carpark by running once, cause they were into tricking us that they were going to get off their vehicle, but going off again.. Since we were so afraid that they were going CIP, we tried to go for it. Guess what, i haven't ran since napfa, and i haven't sprinted since sec1 sports carnival, and i sprinted so hard that moment that i ended up being the one running first.. I totally got shocked by myself, i think i really was quite fast /: LOL! Come back to me, my passion for running~ Oh, but my stamina sucks.. Well, we stayed at the departure hall after that waiting for them to come back (:
Finally, they really got off their van LOL. Had a good look at them.. they really looked tired, and not very happy.. (feeling bad again.) I tried to say thankyou to all of them despite the noisy crowd /: Hmm, Jonghoon wasn't able to pass the immigration at first, and had to go to the counter to settle some stuff, was totally worried for him since all the other members had already passed.. Ah, and that moment came, omg! I guess he just settled the stuff at the counter and proceeding in to join the rest, then i shouted to him in my softest shout i could, "종훈씨 괜찮아요?" which means "are you alright?" and he actually turned back, nodded, and showed the okay sign! :D I was like, omfgfml he just replied me, omg! xD then all of them waved out from inside. Honggi was obviously happy all of a sudden, i bet their manager just said that they can go shopping at the duty free area xD Honggi even pushed the trolley okayyyy! Like excited to go shopping xD Kk, yah then i took the mrt home, but i was afraid that there wouldn't be anymore lrt, since it was pass midnight, so Kimberly's dad drove me home! (Tyvm!)

Well, it all felt like a dream.. Idk how to feel.. I feel really good, but really bad at the same time. It's so contradicting, i admit ): I feel so great, that i was there to see their first fullscale concert in singapore, seeing and hearing them live for the first time after they've visited singapore more so many many many times.. I feel so great to have experienced their live, to feel and hear their music.. I feel so great to see minhwan so upclose during the really short autograph time, to see jaejin at the door, honggi outside the toilet (oops), and all of them during the event, chase, at Manna, and the departure! I feel so great especially the moment honggi took my gifts from my grip and the moment jonghoon replied me.. However, there're also so many things that makes me feel so very very horrible.. Things like being ignored throughout even though i'm seating at row 2 for the concert, the minhwan issue during the autograph session, how the security pulled me off there, how i see their sien expressions over and over again especially the expression of jaejin and his reaction, and honggi.. ): How am i supposed to feel? ): Thinking about all those now, i still got the urge to cry.. but i won't la, cause i'm at home -.- Argh..

Anyway, i lost about 2kg thanks to these two days too! I really hope the weight wouldn't come back to me.. like i was so glad i lost 2kg! Serious! And i made some new friends too!

But i seriously.. feel damn horrible i wanna cry ): don't like that kind of feeling.. not at all..

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Kk, time for the pictures, before i start tearing ):

Countdown Fireworks

Jiaen, Lenise, Fione, Myself, Jiahui

Jiahui

Presents (:

Omg yes, 7bottles of 12Plus my sister brought back from Thailand!
Don't have Yesung, Ryeowook and Shindong though ):

From Hazel (:

O'level results day.

Last time wearing Nanhua Uniform ):

Our tickets (:

Press picture of the Concert

Look, That is the distance away from the extended stage! No zoom.

PLAY!FTIsland

This looks gorgeous, doesn't it?

That white man is honggi LOL!

Super far away from stage ): Plus the speaker blocking..

Seunghyun with the smiley balloon! The prim must be so happy!

Minhwan was totally looking at my direction! But the picture's so blur ):

Jonghoon ah ):

Honggi and the small FTIsland balloon (:

I think he's waving to prims!

Honggi's shoes LOL! But i couldn't get a good image of the cartoon thingy ):

The stage that day.

My letter + dequadin

My image of the day, 16012012. Lol!

Autographed Poster (:

Minhwan's signature is as adorable as him!

Damn Happy when i saw this (:
Korea's number 1 rock band!

The buckle bracelet.

Preeetiful xD

Lightstick :D

Shirt. Damn nice i swear.

The pentastick that was with me for a long time + my ticket.

黃玉榮's autograph yaying helped me to get when she met him at fullerton hotel
while she was waiting for Homin Lol xD
And he's chinese got problem xD He mix simplified and tradtional chinese together..
Cause, simplified is 齐, traditional is 齊.. xD

Kay, that's all.. finally blogged (: Shall get back deep into my thoughts and be emotional..

Goodbye, 2011. Hello, 2012.

2011-12-31T01:59:00.000+08:00

快點來笑一下跟著我笑一下
人生本來就是天大的笑話

"Hello Joker on the track~"
LOL, Hi, it's the last day of 2011, 311211. How's everyone doing? Has every one of you gotten ready to welcome 2012? Have you finished up what to be completed in 2011? Have you lived enough of 2011? Are you ready to say goodbye to 2011 and say hello to 2012 with a bright smile? (:
Well, i hope you do! Cause' even though i'm not really looking forward to 2012, i'm trying to feel excited for it, hahahaa! At the same time, I can't wait to leave 2011 though x: Can't there be some 2011.5, so that i can leave 2011 and not get into 2012? x: Lol, okay ignore me xD

Well, since it's the last day of 2011, lets talk about all the plus and minus over this entire year, should i? (: But before that, i should briefly talk about my "these few days" before my stm acts up on me again!

Leaving home at 23 00+ on the 24th, yes, christmas eve, to go to Kimberly's house for a 'hangover' cause her parents weren't home, so yeh. Got myself a cup of mocha frappe from Starbucks, JP, since i reached much earlier than kimberly. Considered that as a Self Christmas treat, hahahaa! Anyway my Christmas was spent worse than a normal day, so yep, self fulfilling will make it better, hohoho xD Saw tzulai walking pass before kimberly reached at 00 02 LOL! So, Yep Merry Christmas xD Went to her house i randomly watched videos and such on youtube until kimberly knocked out at around 05 00. Then i continued to watch my show until 09 30 in the morning, until my youtube decided to stop loading for me. D: So i did stupid things with my webcam for awhile and went to sleep too, LOL! Stayed at her house till 18 00+ in the evening before going back home to continue with my BORINGXZ Christmas 2011 /: Frankly, nothing much to talk about for my Christmas. Went to my grandmother's house on boxing day to sort of celebrate belated christmas, where i ate ~~#likeaboss~~ #likeapig for the entire afternoon and evening, heheheee, 不肥死是假的 xD

Alright, 271211, is officially crowned as my most unlucky day in 2011. Nothing went right that day and i swear it sucked half of the time D: It started with being woken up by Glenda's phone call at 11 30. Hell yeh, i was supposed to reach the airport at 11 30, and yesh, i slept to that very moment. Then, i jumped out of bed and started to prepare to leave home. However, i obviously took a long time and worse still, was informed that Block B's flight was brought forward (which was eventually delayed again, whatever, wtfxzxzxzx). I left home, boarded the lrt, but my heart was so heavy, i was so afraid that i might miss them by a bit and i really don't think i'll be able to cope with that situation, so i did a horrible mistake, which i can't really regret, since it was one of the best choice i could have chosen back then. It was to return home, and not go for their arrival. Thus i did the stupidest thing i'd never done in my whole life. Get down the lrt at cck, and waited for the next, board it and return home. LOL, yesh i wasted 30 minutes on the lrts -.- /heartachexz. Then later that afternoon, i was supposed to meet Jiahui, Yinghui, and kimberly for MI4 at Orchard. So, i left home with definitely enough time to reach, but right before i reached the bus stop, a bus left. After a long long long wait of 15 minutes for the next bus, it came, FULL. So the driver drove off, once again.. IN MA FACE, LIKE TOTALLY /: Then, the next bus after 10minutes, which i successfully boarded, was caught in a jam along the express way. Drag drag drag, and i reached orchard only around 5 minutes before the movie started. Went to get Kimberly at the mrt station and walked to lido to meet the other two girls. I'm glad we didn't miss the show, like phew~ Didn't spend much time with them after the movie since i had to go for some CO farewell bbq for our teacher incharge. So, i wanted to try my luck to see if i could take 106 back to clementi, but it doesn't stop at the bus stop behind taka, so i just walked and walked and walked, and ended up taking the mrt back from somerset mrt -.- Frankly, that was all about my unlucky stuff.. but also, the bbq was really boring LOL! I'm sure those who went would agree with me too x:

281211, woke up early to go to Ritz Carlton to try my luck in the morning, but obviously, the awful luck the previous day continued to follow me, so yeh, wasted trip. -.- Rushed back to Boon Lay for 201 class outing! Picnic at the park opposite JP. Lol! To be honest, i enjoyed the time we had together, despite being a little anti social at times and a little crazy at times xD Great to know you guys, like seriously, i really do appreciate y'all in my life! (: Wah, i shoooo shwwwweeeet xD291211, my mum's birthday. Camped at home the whole afternoon to pack my cupboards and stuff, before going for a birthday dinner with my family! Ended up giving my mum the packet of marks&spencer eclair as her birthday present LOL! It was meant to be for myself when i bought it HAHAHA xD
301211, boring day~ Continued packing my stuff, drawer for the day, heheh /: Then, watched kbs gayo daejun live on tv (: Well, idk how to influence non-korean pop people, but i don't intend to either. It's like, like it or not it's your choice, gain or lose, it your decision. So, yep! Congratulations to Beast for winning the Song of the Year award with 'Fiction' on today's KBS Gayo Daejun (: I was really really happy for the win, and was really touched by their actions and words! S O B E A S T ! :D

Okaayayyaayay, done. Now, it's time for 2011. Flashback~
Lets start with..
Top 5 Positives (:
#1 Meeting LOLLIPOP F after almost 3 years.
#2 SS3 Singapore.
#3 Get through O'levels alive and kicking.
#4 Grown up.
#5 Gained quite a lot more freedom.

Top 5 Negatives ):
#1 Losing a kin.
#2 Losing myself.
#3 Self disppointment.
#4 Disappointing others who cared.
#5 Losing faith.

Top 5 Memories
#1 The times my idols and i had together, especially my husband's hug. xD
#2 My lovely friends out there, every one of you, no matter if you're still there, or have left.
#3 Promnight 2011. It was an achievement actually, lol!
#4 All my bus rides to and fro school, talk, sleep, or songs.
#5 The foolish me.

Top 5 Regrets
#1 Drifting apart with my close friends.
#2 Missing the various idols when they were in Singapore.
#3 Spending too much money on food and thus growing fat.
#4 Those days, those thoughts.
#5 (This can actually be the first).. To have so much regrets in year 2011.

Hmm, maybe i should be more optimistic, for now! (: I'm glad i can be honest with myself now. I'm losing many many parts of myself, but i won't give up finding them back and piece them up nicely again. That was my 2011, it wasn't great, but everyone, and every life have their flaws isn't it? (: I shall hope for a better 2012.

Shall end this post with some stupid pictures, LOL! Bear with it, thanks xD

Kay the bottom left spoils the whole thing, sobsob )': But i actually like to do that face, ohwell~

I'm starting to like playing with 4-in-1 :D

My Christmas treat (:

This is what happens when it's 9+ in the morning and you haven't sleep /:

I got that swaggggg~ right xD

Did i mention what happened to my yesung keychain? /: This is it's remains ):

Was packing my stuff and i found this stupid valentine's card i wrote for yesung which i used as a bookmark LOL!

And lastly, this, which was drawn and written by miss tanjiaen!

Kay, Lastly, an early Happy New Year to all! Since i doubt i'll be blogging on the first? (: Hehehe, have a great 2012, lets hope the the world doesn't end next year~

Random, Last day of school

2011-12-24T19:04:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas Eve, everyone! :D
Finally, i feel like posting up the five picture/photo posts, shan't post them in my normal blogging format!
So, this post will be for some random picturess and last day of school (:

111111, 11:11 (:

111111, 07:05 (My husband's birthday LOL)

NgJiaHui (:

Twins, who's more appealing?

Yaying, Failed A-Cha xD

Zixing and Kimberly (:

Joey and Yaying (:

KimberlyFonggggg~

Jiaen and ahma Clarice (:

YingChang (:

Juntat and nicely fit-in Jiahui Lol!

Isa! (:

Doris Ongie (:

409'11 (:

Gradday

2011-12-24T19:02:00.000+08:00

Gradday, fb koped edition Lol xD

Michelle and Jiaen (:

Jiahui, Yinghui! (:

Jiahui, Yinghui, Chenfeng!

Jiaen and Yaying (:

This two despo for me hehehe xD

Camwhore series starts xD

Sweeting, Jiahui, Limhui, Yinghui (:

This is what happens when speeches gets boring x:

Limhui's face so precious xD

Gradday, self edition

2011-12-24T19:01:00.000+08:00

Gradday, my edition x: Hehehee (:

Jiahui and Yinghui (:

Fione (:

Junyi (:

Mummy!

Sweeting, Jiahui, Yinghui (:

Tewwie (:

Junyi and Sweeting (:

Junyi, Zixing (:

Ongsweeeeeeeting (:

Jiaen, Sweeting and half of Junyi's face xD

LOOK AT TEW xD

Jiaen (:

Jiahui (:

Yinghui (:

Zixing (:

Fione (:

Xiaohan (:

Tzulai (:

Qinyin (:

Limhui (:

Chenfeng (:

Zhengyu (:

Jiaen (:

Michelle (:

Clarice (:

Kimberly (:

Joey (:

Zihui (:

Lenise (:

Zihui and Lenise (:

Yaying (:

Melvin (:

Keejeng (:

Yingchang (:

Juntat (:

Thaiming (:

Zhenjun (:

Doris! (:

Promnight

2011-12-24T19:00:00.000+08:00

Promnight (:

Jiaen and Michelle (:

Thanks man my wound ):

Stupid face /:

In Michelle's sister's car!

Hazel Baby (:

Huiqi (:

Doris (:

Bernard (:

Oscar (:

Yujun and Jiayi (:

Keni, Jiaen, Jiayi (:

Isadora (:

Iris (:

Liyin (:

Jiehui (:

Junyi, Jiahui, Sweeting (:
Jiahui (:

Jiaen (:

Lenise (:

Jiahui! (:

Yingchang and Zhenjun (:

Qinyin (:

Sweeting (:

Lenise (:

Junyi (: (Pffft, i look fat -.-)

Clarice, sexyback! (:

Promqueen, Michelle Buannie (:

Limhui (:

Yaying (:

409'11 (:

Misswong, Jiahui (:

Post Graduation

2011-12-24T18:59:00.000+08:00

Post-Graduation (:

Ngeeann Poly, Redcamp8! Ninja Nin-Ninja :D

Benjamin. (Erhhhem, Kimberly xD)

Theon(?)

Toilet guy /:

Rachel (:

Angela (:

Ninja, Kaiyang. (Erhhhhem, jiaen xD)

Eugene. (Erhhhhem, Yinghui xD)

Buannie @Cultural Pot (:

Cui-look @Teentop's Departure! (Thanks people for pushing me around, wheee! xD)

Yaying! @Kimberly's birthday Chalet. (Screw ma pimpleeee)

Glenda, Kimberly, Yaying (:

Random korean guy, Lol! /:

2011-12-17T22:41:00.003+08:00

你的沉默就像刀鋒一刀劃破我的喉嚨
我的胸口停止跳動熱情一瞬間全都解凍

Heyyyyoooo (: It's been really long since i last blogged isn't it? Almost a month already x: Life's been so packed and busy these days, but no doubt i'm living well and happy! :D Even though i haven't been keeping in touch with many people, i seem to like being alone, and i'm happy. Absurd to some, for sure, but it's really great to live and depend on oneself. It's like you're living on your own, for yourself. What for make life hard for yourself living for someone else? x:

Anyway, guess this will be a really long blogpost! Hopefully it'll be since i've got lots to dump over here xD One whole month of my life hellloooo~ Oh, anyway picture spam for the next.. 5 posts too! I've uploaded the pictures but yet to add in any words to them, like lazy la x:

Life after O'levels and Secondary school has been well for me. I'm living as myself, busy, and productive at the same time! Seemed like i stopped updating my life here since.. 191111, which was dated for my previous post.. Shall start with Prom then! (:

211111, NHHS Promnight2011. Woke up early to make my hair which failed terribly ): There's still a difference between what i wanted it to be and what it turned out to be la.. Oh well, i'm contented though! Anyway, i travelled to Michelle's house aftermath in my jacket, fbt and slippers. HAHAHA, everyone's thought will be 'wtf?' like how Limhui and Michelle reacted xD I'm glad only both of them saw me like that! Hahahaa, whateverrrr, i had no choice kay ): Anyway i went to Michelle's house i got dressed up before going jp for all the remaining stuff. Frankly it was weird to walk in jp in a dress.. Actually i haven't went anywhere in a dress before that -.- Met cheong before getting onto michelle's sister's car, followed by Zihui's to get to Amara. Thanks to jiaen if not i sure zaogeng like free getting in and out of the car, despite zaogeng also zaogeng fbt xD SEE, I REALLY CANNOT BE GLAM AND WEAR A DRESS LA. PLUS THE HEELS, IT'S STILL SCARY THINKING ABOUT IT NOW.. But i'm proud of myself for getting though that day la, woots! :D So, everyone was so well dressed that day, as if we were really grown ups.. To be honest, i don't feel too much of sadness about the seperation this time round, which kind of surprised myself a lot. I've been a sudden "crybaby" for all my past experiences, but it was different this time round.. idky /: All i can say is that, prom, was a good night for me to remember and recall, even though it wasn't really as special as i thought, but i will definitely remember the different moments that filled my night! This includes the pain caused by my heels, oh welllll~ I got the aisweemaimiah potential manxz! Despite so, i kind of regret it a lot.. Promnight was filled with memories, and regrets. There were so many people that i didn't get to catch up with, so many important people.. Guess that's my life, get on with it.. Went for starbucks at rafflescity before junyi's dad sent us home, her parents are really great! (: That ends my cui night, hehehe, shall let the pictures tell the story! (:

The next three days after prom was really busy too! Went for NP redcamp8, and was late for two days LOL. Ninjas ftw kay! :D All i could say about the camp is that it's definitely worth going, worth the fun, worth the time! Had a great time with Jiaen, Sweeting, Yinghui, Zihui, Kimberly there (: Oh and their yadadadada goodlooking guys that i really think was soso only xD HAHAHAHA SORRYYYYEEEEEE~ People taste and standard too high xD Didn't really make new friends there though, wasn't really sociable x: Went off earlier on the 23rd for cultural pot. Coincidentally met yongming while boarding 151 to get to ucc from np! It's been long since i met him, and he's still the same LOL. I was lucky to have met him, if not i guess i'd be lost in nus.. I really have no idea how to get to ucc ): Got there in the end and met gs, isa, huiwen, etc. Didn't get to catch up with the juniors much either.. Such a waste ): But at least i got to meet them for awhile la! It was really the first time i went for cultural pot as an audience, and it was quite cool but boring xD Had supper with yongming, zhikai and juxian aftermath before cabbing home with yongming, his friend, and zhikai.. That was like 1+ am already /: Got to sleep abit before going for breakfast and then redcamp again for the next day. The final day is always the best day, indeed it was (: Had great fun before the camp ended at around 8+ pm, with the burning ninja spirit! :D

Took the mrt with yinghui since i was going in that direction too! Both of us were like cheering in the train la! xD Dumb, but fun, isn't it? :D The answer to why i was going the opposite direction from home was that i was going to the Airport! xD Teentop's arrival (: Met Glenda at the airport then went to wait for their flight. Met chingling and her friends too, hahaah, chingling is really a friend that i made through coincidence at beast's fanmeet this july xD Anyway, teentop boys are really nice and sweet boys la, despite them looking really tired and such, they still smile and wave like nobody's business xD Ricky even opened to curtain of the bus they boarded just to wave to the fans, like sweet only~ Alright, anyway, i spent the night with the girls at the airport.. I swear you'll die of cold when you actually nap overnight at the airport. Cause i almost died even though i had my jacket on -.- Camped there for the whole night before going to Glenda's house to shower and rest a bit till noon the next day. Thanks and sorry to Glenda manxz ): Went home for lunch and then i rushed out again. Met Nicole at Sqaure2 for sundown festival fanmeet, then Glenda joined us too! Managed to catch not only teentop, but also Jrock band Vivid and 張芸京 there (: However, as usual, i'm going to say that i seriously dislike Singaporean fans.. especially those so called kpop fangirls. No offence, i'm not refering to all of them, but some of them are really annoying -.- Horrible max..

Went to the airport again the next day, but with Yinghui this time round, to fetch Showlo's flight! Hahaha, like what i've expected, yinghui was sien due to the short period of time she could see showlo, but i've gotten used to it so~ Furthermore, he was in beanie, shades, and black all over.. Hmm, it was a pity though.. Went for Kimberly's birthday chalet after fetching show's flight. Bunkers ftw LOL! Guess what we did the first night?.. We went to the airport HAHAHA WTF RIGHT xD Felt so bad for Sweeting, limhui and yinghui ): But they seemed to have a great time chatting at t2 macs xD Kay, anyway, we sent Teentop off for their departure that night (: The boys were still really nice and sweet, but they weren't accepting any gifts then.. So, chunji's letter is still in my file even till now.. Hanged around the terminals after sending them off with yaying, kimberly and glenda. Kay, nothing much other than this cute random korean guy that ended up taking a photo with us. LOL, like okayyyyy? But i swear i was damn cui after all the busy days and sleepless nights, pimple growing like free.. Hmm, forget it, idrc anyway~ Also, we sent showlo off the next morning too! Hahaha, he looked really tired though ): Well, also, from sending showlo off, many of them realised how obedient and quiet fans can actually be.. It was more prominent with the compare and contrast with teentop's departure the previous night.. I wasn't really fascinated since i kind of know how obedient showlo fans are, but sometimes i really hope that those so called kpop fangirls out there could learn to behave better x: Again, no offence, unless you're feeling guilty, hahah.. In chinese, it's called 對號入座. Reflect yourselves. (:

Back to kimberly's chalet, even though the place was really small, it was actually surprisingly enough for the few of us to camp there without feeling like sardines! Hahaah, also, we had a great time with kimberly's family on the second day! Her family is really fun, it was great to experience the different parts of the event they've prepared for the birthday girl HAHAHA xD Like fun only, and i can still laugh at yaying whenever i recall what she did that resulted in kimberly wanting to kill her~ Although i ended up being her scapegoat D: Anyway i really had fun at her chalet! (: Thanks for the great time, shorty~ Managed to get replenish some 20% of my lost sleep of the previous days on the 28th after her chalet!

291111 was MAMA2011SG (: Obviously i won't stay home LOL! Travelled to stadium to meet kimberly to queue for MAMA Redcarpet! Yadadadada for the waiting time and such.. we were at the back of the queue, so it's actually quite horrible ): Didn't get a good spot at first, a horrible spot to be frank.. And there goes my Beast and Hyuna.. D: Managed to get a better spot after awhile, even though it still wasn't a really good one, but i'm sure it was better than my previous spot -.- However, my view was blocked by the trees there.. I swear i had the urge to chop down all the trees here at that time! x: Like seriously la.. Well, at least i got to look at the artistes more clearly than before.. Beast.. was a regret! D: All i can say is that Songjoongki's really charming hehehe, beautiful boy (: And ofcourse SJ, 2NE1, SimonD, etc. were awesome! There goes the redcarpet.. Went to have dinner with kimberlytan at KLP before going to the door to camp and listen. Hahaha, dramatic things happen to me when i feel hopeless /: Whatever, shan't self own here xD Oh, surprisingly, i was so shocked when my mum allowed me to camp at mbs for the night! HAHAHA, it was like.. miracle happened siol, for the first time i didn't scam my mum, and she actually allowed! Scare the hell out of me despite being really happy :D So i went to camp overnight with yaying at mbs (she scam her mum siolllll xD) Hahaha, fact is that i was usually the one scamming my mum and she wouldn't need to! O: Well, it was not a really productive night there though, but it was already good enough for my first try camping overnight at the hotel! My best gift that night was Siwon's smile and considerate gestures (: I really look up to him! Also, we met the YB guitarist that no one could really recognise, and i really think he's a little drunk for his highness xD And this really great movie star and actor which until now i still idk what's his name.. LOL! Got to make a few new friends there too (: Went home after having breakfast with yaying at vivo before going home the next day.. Why vivo when we were at mbs? Cause the cab uncle was too smart to hear "raffles city" as "vivo city".. So 我們也無可奈何 and ended up eating at vivo lo.. Thankfully there's always 963 there for me to go home xD Reached home at 9+ am after a sleepless night, showered, and fell asleep on the sofa before my hair dried.. Why sofa? Cause My eldest sister and ivansim was still sleeping.. There goes my bed. However, it doesn't make a difference to me, since i can sleep anytime, anywhere x: Slept all the way till 7 pm? /:

011211 was the start of my working life, and my enough sleep nights (: No more sleepless nights for me, and lesser pimples growing :D LOL! I'm glad i found a job that has short working hours, despite having low pay (: I like free time, for myself to spend, or actually waste!

Was it 7th or 8th? Met Jiahui, jiaen, limhui, clarice for dinner at sakura and caught up a little (: Then went to Jasmine's house on the 10th for her 18th birthday celebration! Guess our friendship is really a unique one too, hahaha who'd become such close friends through fandom like us? xD Coincidentally met Michelle and Jiaen at cckmrt while i was going home from work on the 15th, then met them again the next day since they were with jiahui and i was going to meet jiahui for dinner! I really think this three girls are crazy and they do weird stuff hohohoho xD Went to vivo for dinner date and caught up with jiahui till 11+ before going home. It's always nice to talk to this bimbo (:

Anyway, tada, i'm done with updating my life on this space i have. Sometimes, i'm grateful to this space, it's the only place i can record my life down! (: Even though some feelings couldn't be blogged here, but it's still filled with every small detail of my daily life for many years (: On a side note, i'm so proud of myself for completing 35episodes of the drama 步步驚心, 2episodes of it's behind the scenes, and an episode of Running man in 5 days xD Woots, shiok xD Hahaha, and after blogging, i'm so going to start my next show~ My list of shows to be watched is really long, and my to do list is much longer like omfgxz.. But i'm kinda determined to really finish them! :D Well, i'm off then~ Shall go work on the 5 picture posts before posting them up. Byeeee, i'm so happy that i was really able to finish this whole post tonight :D

2011-11-19T23:46:00.002+08:00

好想告訴你告訴你我沒有忘記
那天晚上滿天星星平行時空下的約定

"Pika pika!"
I've been wanting to blog since many days ago but haven't had the time too, but finally i'm able to post something now! Hopefully i won't miss out anything i intended to blog about!

Shall start with the amazing date, 111111. Yes, it was MinariDay111111, FTIsland's Drummer Minhwan's birthday! :D Kay, so it was the second last O'level paper, Physics paper 1 that day. Went to school for an hour to take the paper and went to meet my eldest sister for some shopping xD Went to bugis, but didn't really buy anything since it was too early and nothing caught my eye except for a FOX pullover which i made my sister share it with me so that we could share the price too! Hehehee! Oh btw i saw #MAMA2011SG advertisement there. Hmm, had lunch with my sister and went rushing off to meet Stephanie, Jasmine, Cindy and Nicole and Plaza Sing to catch "You Are the Apple of My Eye"! Well, let's just call it "那些年, 我們一起追的女孩", i'm much more used to that! (: It was only the second day the movie was screened in the movies, and i had been anticipating it a long time, so i really couldn't wait to get it and watch xD Well, all i can say is that there's a reason why it is rated NC16 in singapore! It's indeed a great show though, some may still go against my statement, but hell yeah idrc! Cause to me, i really feel that it's a great show (: It has all the essence of joy, laughter, youth, tears, love, fun, school, etc. It's just like.. Sugar, spice, and everything nice! Moreover, there's Owodog! xD Yes, the 曹雞巴雞巴曹操林呆操林老師 xD Cried a little for the first time watching it ): I know i'm a really emotional person while watching shows and movies, whatdadadadaever~ Hmm, slacked around with the girls and gongcha for some time before going home!

1411, was the last day of O'levels, Chemistry paper 1! Yep, it marks the freaking day of freedomxz!:D Okay, so hmm, i went to catch 那些年 with Zihui, Yinghui, Limhui and Kimberly again! Second time watching the movie, and if i'm not wrong it's the first time i'm catching a movie twice in the cinemas x: Anyway, i cried even more this time round.. while none of the rest cried x: Hahahaa, sorrryyyee i'mma water tap, but it's really sadddd!! D: Well, by the way, just by watching twice, i've managed to remember most of the scenes really clearly! Woots, i like that feeling idky, but it feels good! Really recommend those that haven't catched it to go to the cinema and watch it, you wouldn't regret, for sure. (: Went home pretty early that afternoon, and started to plan for running man for class chalet(which wasn't carried out due to the weather) D:. Kay, so i actually took the bus to town with my dad to meet my mum at ion just to eat popeyes chicken -.- Frankly, i don't really get it.. Shall just put it in this way, 'i was a filial child that night'. As dull as it can get, as usual, going out with my parents.. /:

1511 was the start of class chalet! I went to borrow the bells that were supposed to be used for running man from my sister's friend before meeting limhui and clarice to bus to clementi to meet up with the rest of the class. Keejeng boarded the bus too, Lol! Anyway we were quite early and no one was there yet so we spent some time getting stuff from clementi mall before meeting up with the rest after a few minutes. Proceeded on to the chalet, which thanks to my boredness caused abrasion above my knee and also a slip while cleaning up. Random games and such in the day so i shan't go into detail. Went for night cycling after have bbq for dinner. It was actually fun despite the accidents that happened and all the trouble back to the chalet with two extra bikes x: 7 hours of cycling, no joke. Everyone was like nua at the living area after returning to the chalet! Took turns to shower, and the sun was already rising by the time i prepared to sleep.. i slept on the stairs leaning on the rails, but was told by kimberly that i was lying down on the stairs instead, what?! Lol! I wonder how i did that.. subconsciously changing my position without even knocking my head onto the stairs? Hmm, cool xD

I'm uncertain about who was the one who woke me up and asked me to sleep in the room instead after about 2-3 hours sleeping on the steps. Anyway i went to sleep on the bed for another few hours before waking up again and went to elias mall for brunch! Random games and such again back at the chalet, while i prepared the props for running man, but we didn't get to play since it started to rain before we could ): No bad feelings though, just felt a little wasted x: Thus the random games and fun continued till evening, whereby we started the fire for bbq once again (: That was also when some of them left the chalet, and some joined too! The worst thing that night was Mrcheng joining us just while we were preparing for bed x: It's like he came all the way to tell us stories and went home right after.. Guilty max? x: Anyway that was a bad night with the air conditioner blown straight at me and with jiaen tugging all the blanket away D: Cold die me manxz, seriously!

Woke up the next morning to clean up the place and checked out of the chalet at noon! Thanks to zihui and her parents for booking the chalet and stuff! :D Had domino's pizza before taking the train home, it was really good hahahaa, i liked it a lot actually xD Hmm, spelt throughout the ride home. Reached home at around 4.30pm, and start to rush around unpacking and refreshing myself before rushing out again to meet jiahui in town at 6pm! Tiring indeed eh? x: However it was a really productive night where i got both my prom dress and heels! LOL I felt zai to actually get them in one night since i usually spend a long time x: Well, at least i safed up much time for other stuff! xD Managed to sleep for some 5 hours before heading to school for graduation day, which was all boring /: Camwhored with the girls instead of listening to talks hehehe, also thanks for the gifts and cards~ By the way i failed to take a photo with everyone in the class! D: Left with three, which i don't think they'll care so yeh, shall not care too heheh x:

Well, instead of looking for 2pm at JP in the evening, i was at home, since it was already too late to get a good spot, plus it had already started to rain ): However, i went to meet up with Shaowei, Junwei, Chunen and Chaisim at bppmacs to talk at night (: Screwed something up but hmm, shan't elaborate.. Walked home at around 1+ where chaisim started scaring cats out of the way and while shaowei started to hate cats xD Met some insane woman on the way home.. -.- Scary indeed x: Lol! Anyway thanks to cs for walking me home though he's only living a block away hahahah!

Woke up the morning and slacked for the whole afternoon before leaving to bpp to print pictures and get my dress altered, then lotone to buy stuff. Then, i went to warren to meet my parents.. Saddening how i didn't look for 2pm at all this time round. I'm sure it's going to add on to my list of #Regretsinlife -.- Just like B1A4 previously.. aish ): Well well, life's sad~ Kay, so now i'm here blogging, and blogger's bullying me by not saving half of my blogpost previously, and caused me to retype half of it again (which is what i'm actually doing now).. Yawnxz.

In short, i hadn't had much sleep these days, from o'levels till.. today! ): Tired max.. ): Aish. Furthermore, this packed schedule which means less sleep and increase tireness will remain till the end of the month.. D: Anyway i shall just post up the pictures the next time k! Till then, 再見!

Last thing before i end this post, the 4 LollipopF Music Videos from their new album, DANCE. (:

2011-11-05T13:24:00.002+08:00

無狀態的狀態最精彩
自由自在自由自在

Helloheythereyoyo!
Yes it's still in the middle of O'levels but i'm up here blogging x: SINNED, but for once, it's okay right! I'll try not to spend all my time here, gotta start studying again later on. (:

Just feel like noting down some stuff (: Which is my happy day yesterday. Happy, yet tiring though! That's why i'm blogging today instead of last night since i was too tired, heheeh! Shall also note down the stuff i want to blog after O's too, provided i've got the time to though x: Oh, and also some of the things i've been thinking about these days!

Let's start with yesterday (: Took SS O'level paper in the morning, and i'm kinda happy? I bet everyone is too, cause Sri Lanka came out xD Many people placed their bets on it, and i believe it's not bad! So, went to central and had breakfast at macs, played Super Junior Shake on Clarice's itouch again! :D Happy LOL! Talked to the girls for quite awhile before leaving the place. Ohyeh, and i finally bought two new pairs of Contacts! :D Kk, i'm really happy hehehe, still Maxieyes though, but i bought a new pair of brown, instead of the normal 'wear to school won't get caught' kind xD Shall go try out the ones zihui introduced previously next time! Cause i've already jio-ed limhui to get maxi with me, so cannot pangseh x: Anyway i'm happy la xD but my hard saved $28 bucks is now gone ):

106ed to town with Jiahui and Yinghui aftermath, and went window shop ): Yinggie left to meet her mum after awhile, so i was with Jiahui. It was supposed to be a study trip, but it ended up with everything but study xD It's always great to talk to this girl, somehow and idk how i can open up to her, but not others.. Yeah, so #Capricorn Lol xD But yeh, i'm glad she's around at times (: Shan't talk about confidential stuff, so yeh (: Told her my evil deeds too, hohoho, damn fun xD Alright, so we went to cineleisure's shokudo for lunch(?). I had matcha icecream with waffle :D I'm a matcha addict~ Anyway i recommend that, cause it's really great, the waffle's really tasty too (: Ah, and i really got a very very strong fetish for autumn/winter stuff like furry apparels, beanies (as i said before) and scarfs! Other than that, i also like bright coloured stuff and male clothings a lot xD HAHAHA SERIOUS, NO JOKE. And to hell with being poor, i'm not having anything i like ): Saddening, but i really want to earn money to be rich..

Sidetrack a bit, I'm so happy to see Owodog all around Singapore xD Thanks to the movie 那些年, 我們一起追的女孩 (: I swear he's all around and he's making my day all the time hehehe! Was telling the girls about the show and spazzing about Owodog at Clementi Mrt before we split up xD HAHAHAAA Sorry people xD He's really damn cute :D :D :D And gogogo and watch the show in the cinema! Not funshion not pps kkk! I can guarantee that the movie is awesome, fact that it has really good viewing rates explains all! 票房破三億, no joke kkk! :D Another thing, is that you can even see the 'poster' or actually 'wall paper' (?) at Cineleisure's NUM! :D I was like OMG JIAHUI! GOT AOQUAN!! When we walked pass num yesterday xD Heheheh, malu, but i managed to take a photo of him before leaving LOL #idrcwhatpeoplethink xD Oh i even mentioned him on 微博 but obviously got ignored ):

So, since i didn't want to go home yet(oops), we walked to 313 where Joey popped out from nowhere xD Joey's really a very cute girl (: OrchardCentral afterwards, then we went home already. It was a really tiring day.. ):

Anyway i think i was really lucky, cause i had to go to bpp to buy shampoo (LOL) before going home. So i alighted from 190 and walked to bpp, got my shampoo, then walked out the other exit, and tada, 920 came just as i reached the bus stop xD Kay, i know it's stupid to be happy over such things but i just feel luckayeee :D Oh, and i literally walked through bpp x: Kay that's almost all.. Was awake for 21 hours yesterday before i plonked into my bed. O'levels is bad for health, i swearrrrrr!

DREAMS. Let's talk about dreams. As in 夢想, not the dream you dream while sleeping.. I've been thinking about this for quite some time, during the O'level period. Probably because i was wondering why i had to study so hard, when i'm not even interested in studying? I feel like, probably i've a dream, probably i need to develop a dream, which i can work towards, to persue it. Is it that hard? Hmm, i guess it is, at least in Singapore. How many Singaporeans do you know that has a dream in mind? For me, i guess i don't really know one.. Like in my circle of friends and family, i guess there isn't even one. (I shall be the one, hohoho xD) Well, but yesh, i will have one, probably in the near future. I hope i'll be able to have a dream, cause it'll do me well. (: What about you?

Kk, so i need to remember what do i need to blog about? Hmm.. Lollipop F's new album review, school, graduation, idols.. What else? x: What else to do? I wanna change a new blogskin, i'm sick and tired of this by now x: I need the timeeeee! And yes one important thing is the shuffling thingy for #MAMA2011SG.. Aish, pleaseeee let me be lucky.. But before that, i need to organise my thoughts together to make it work! ): *DIEXZ

Oh and lastly, i need a freaking job to support myself financially. DESPERATEEEE ):

This post shall end with..

後會有期 (:

2011-10-15T10:51:00.003+08:00

學會放手學會看透學會看你遠走
只是我的心還沒有做好準備接受

It's almost a month since i last blogged, i miss blogging a lot, not because i've got no life or whatever, but frankly, i depend on my blog a lot, cause it's the only place that i can keep my memories well and proper. So, i feel like a month of my life had been empty now ): Can't really recall anything either.. This is really bad, i swear! If anyone is reading this, and you know what i did for the past month, please tell me what happened in the past month other than studying. I'd like, really appreciate that (:

Kay so i guess i'm coping my life quite well now? At least it isn't too bad, just that i don't really think that there's enough time for me to prepare for the upcoming O'levels that i've to sit for which starts in 9 days time. -.- Yes, 9.. @#$%^&*().. Have to start studying after blogging for now too.. ): Aish..

Yesterday, 141011, was officially the last day of school for sec4s. The last day for our secondary school life.. Four years isn't a short period of time, but also, it isn't really long. Now, it's left with the O'levels and all our futures. Seems like this four years had been great (: Though to me, it still can't be compared to my six years in primary school, but it's still four really fun and meaningful years.. I'll miss my friends, really, though i don't really have loads and loads of them to miss x: I'll really miss them, still.

No one gave a damn to studies yesterday, we had fun for the whole day! At least i had fun (: 409, is a lovely class, indeed. We've to admit that our class isn't totally bonded, but still, we can't doubt the fact that we're one. :D Together with all the other sec4 classes, lets strive towards our goals and work hard for o'levels (: We shouldn't be too sad for this 'ending', since it's a new beginning for us. Let's be positive! It's our future that awaits us, prolly a totally different future for each and everyone of us.. However, let's look forward to seeing us all grown up sometime later, alright? It's kind of fun xD Jiaen said that we'll see her really fair 10 years later, so i'm anticipating! :D

Took tonnes of photos yesterday, partied as if our o'levels have ended xD Let's do better when the o'levels really end kay :D Professional cameraman on standby with kimberly's camera Lol, it's fun taking pictures for people, maybe i should learn photography or something x: Hahahaaa, that can be my next few poly course choices!:D Anyway, i'm glad to see all of us having fun together (: Poonie, yvonne and wongie too! Kay i know it's disgusting to call them that, but idrc, i like to call people by ending with -ie x: It's fun to have them together with the 32 of us :D We should all keep in touch k, it'd be great if we really do (:

Kay la, that's kinda all, shan't be too sentimental now xD I'll be sentimental prolly on grad day or prom night xD

Anyway, yesterday was badddddd, cause a handful more people saw me cry, sucks ): I swear i don't like people to see me cry, just don't like it.. Prolly don't like people to see the weak side of me? Hahaha, whatever, i shan't cry in public anymoreee, if possible. (:

Lastly, thankyou 409 for everything these two years (: It's my pleasure knowing ya'll and even getting weird nicknames and whatever! Idk why i keep looking like cartoon characters D: You guys are (Y) (:
201 too, it was great to have you people around for two years too! Let's go out together someday soon k! All the best for o'levels (:

2011-09-22T19:47:00.002+08:00

來把知覺來把衝動
把心裡的猶豫統統趕走

Hello i'm back <3 Lol, was busy spamming my shows yesterday that i didn't post! Oh well, anyway, as i expected, i've forgotten most of what i wanted to post.. Rah, fuckthis ): Aish.. Should've noted down somewhere, i'm sucha dumbass ohshitxz. ):
Kay now, i shall try.. and note down right here (LOL) before i forget anything again. x:
September termbreak, Prelim2, Before and after prelims, today, feelings, songs. Hmm, that's all that my mind can come out with for now ):

Kay, september termbreak was really.. kind of horrible. If i didn't remember wrongly, i camped at home almost everyday, and tried hard to study even though i was a total restless. It's like i'd deactivate my 3 alarms every morning and wake up in the early afternoons, and i just don't feel like studying. I knew such attitude was really bad, but come on, it isn't under my own control, i really tried.. !@#$%^&* but whatever, it's the past~ Kay that's actually almost all about my termbreak.. Just sleep, study, eat, comp, and yes grow fat ): Hell yeah i'm currently getting heavier and heavier by the day, saddening shitxz.. Whyyyyyyy is this happening.. ): Well back to the topic, i feel that such holidays really suck, like ohmygawd why am i so bloody pathetic? whatever.. ):

Prelim2 was screwed up, 100%. I've no idea what i could say about the whole freaking examination. All i know is that i don't have any confidence for any subject, any paper. It's like yeh, rotten, squishy, disgusting, bleh. Everything bad mixed together.. Stressed, demoralised, and such, it's hard to take it, it takes a lot of hard work and determination to overcome them to.. ): All i've left with is one month and it's the O'levels already. Yes time flies, so fast that i can't cope the hell with it.. It's like my last chance now, since prelims is over, i'll just allow myself to take a break for a few days, then yeh, i need to plan how i'm going to study for my o'levels already ): It's time, i sincerely hope that it isn't too late. I really wish i can do well and get into courses i really want, it'd suck so much if i can't go to my preferred courses.. So yeh, please, hello, be motivated and determined! I'll try. As much as i can cope. Yesh, this takes time though, so i should enjoy my short break first xD Hehehehhee, 休息是爲了走更長的路! 加油 (: A phrase from 毛弟, '撐過去就是你的了' I hope i'll be able to do so, i'll look forward to the day that i actually 撐過去. (:

Anyway 1209, which was the previous monday, i went to school dispite having no papers on that day! Cause i'm so done with chinese~ :D Alright, so i reached school at about 10+ or 11 in the morning i guess, then i met up with the girls since they were having their break, and proceeded on to study while they were having their paper. (: Teaparty with jiahui and yaying after that to study for the papers the next day, the food was good, but we weren't really productive so we decided to return home in the early evenings.. Bus rides alone always makes me feel for many things, good and bad, but i really like it (:
Well, so the few days for prelims were just a total stressed studying and studying like a mad dog, standard waking up before dawn to continue studying.. Obviously all the hardwork were junk though ):
Hmm, alright, it's either last friday or this monday, i went for lunch with some of the girls, and proceeded to Westmall with lenise, xiaohan and jiahui. Wanted to have frolick, but it was full so we decided to eat at the dessert stall beside frolick (: Had random talk with the girls and the songs were good LOL! It's kind of awkward yet funny when i'm quiet during english songs, and they went quiet when it was a korean song. HAHAH. Cool kay, got 'shock' ley LOL! Xiaohan left for home since she needed to get ready for her tuition, then the three of us walked westmall, Lenise and her du yi stationery xD LOL! And jiahui spoilt something in there, tsktsk! It was a great laugh though~ Managed to 慫恿 jiahui into going to lotone to slack Hehehee! So we went there as lenise went home. Settled down at foodjunction to talk (: It was really a great talk, hahahh, it's been so long since i opened up to someone.. Talked for some one-two hours, and decided to go home since it was in the evening already.. Anyway thanks for the talk, woman (: Antisocial alert xD
Had branch with the class girls after tuesday's paper at macs (i seriously dk if i remember anything wrongly!) and talked about a whole chunk of weird stuff like horror and such LOL! After effect, tsktsk! I've got no idea how long we talked, but it's definitely quite some time, Hahahahh xD Then, after prelims, like the whole freaking prelims ended yesterday, we had lunch at clementi market. LOL (: Evil me taught her how to kope the photocard LOL Oops! xD Kay, boring day, which ended with me spamming shows at home, and even going bangkit with my mum. LOL. Watched Khuntoria's ending, 2pm show ep9, dreamteam suju. LOL Like shiok only! And even listened to Lollipop F's new song that was out yesterday for a million times. Heheheh, managed to figure out most of the lyrics just by listening, proud of myself siol LOL xD Kay, to summarise that, it was such a slack day <3

Today's thursday, so school started off late, but it was raining really heavily ): really bad for it to rain, cause i had no choice but to use my uber act cute umbrella, aish. Was alone on bus with my music, and suddenly all the thought that ran though my mind made me really emotional. I actually almost cried at some points.. ): One of them was the thought of my Lollipop boys.. It's like my original LOLLIPOP棒棒堂 was 6 lovely boys, now, four them them are in LOLLIPOP F, and two of them are in JPM with 毛弟.. I was wondering if it'd be possible if Lollipop F were to hold a concert, and let JPM be the special guests? Then, they'll be able to stand on the stage together once again, and yes, perform the songs that belong to the six of them. How great will that be? Then i started to feel sour.. ): When will that day come, will it even come..? I really hope so.. My 敖煜傑緯威王. I really totally very miss them a lot..
Hmm, okay anyway i failed to hail a cab with limhui kina and zhikai too. LOL Emoshitxz. ): Card games filled the day as it was a total useless day in school.. Finally learnt how to play bridge, but i'm still not good at it x: Had a little talk with jiahui during recess too.. ): Anyway i've got mixed feelings hearing what wongie said. She said that i can only do emath but not amath, hahahhah, she was saying that i did well for emath but amath really like shit. Oops.. should i feel happy for my emath, or sad for my amath? x: Ahh, not going to care for now.. (: Class item for grad day finally improved after school! :D Proud of us all manxz, and screw those that prefer not to coorperate, come one just fuckoff if you really don't give a damn kay. Bye, i'll look down on you. Hopefully reaudition tomorrow will turn out well! I really hope it'll be good (: All the best, 409! :D

It's autumn now! :D The best season ever, i really like autumn! Hahahaha, and it's time for beanies yoxzzzzz, i shall live on my blue beanie for the time being xD Sucks, but heck, i'll get more when i'm richer (That day doesn't seem to come..)! Have been having minor moodswings these days idk why.. Like i get affected my many little things that happens in live, good or bad, i really got no idea ): Guess it isn't really good though, since i actually know what's happening to me at times.. Badbadbad moodswings. Everything's like 處境傷情.. It's like almost everything i see, i hear, i remember, i feel reminds me of stuff. That's bad like seriously, it's not the time for all these.. Hmm, but i'll still be happy, real or fake, i will. (:

Shall spam songs here at the bottom of the post! (: Which is here la :D
First, LOLLIPOP F - DANCE.
It's a new song that had just released though radio yesterday from the four boys (:

Second, Superjunior - A-Cha.
It's the main promotion song for Superjunior's 5jib repackaged, some people may be unable to accept such music styles since it's kind of weird, but i really think it's alright. (:

Third, Superjunior feat. f(x) - Oops.
It's a bubbly and cute song in 5jib repackaged with funny and engaging lyrics, especially for an ELF (:

Forth, Superjunior - Andante.
Andante means walking speed, if i didn't remember wrongly. It's a sweet sounding yet emotional song about seperation, from 5jib repackaged too.

Fifth, Superjunior - A day.
Trust me this is a good song. The song is so sweet like seriouslyyyyy! Cheesy xD Another song from 5jib repackaged anyway (:

Sixth, Derrickhoh何維健 - 每時每刻.
It's a song about relationships, regardless of friendship, bgr, kinship, or whatever (: Much of the song was produced by derrick himself and he was the director for this music video! So proud of him as a singaporean manxz xD

Seventh, Teentop - The back of my hand brushes against.
A sweet song about.. Confession? Somewhat la, but the song is really sweet hearing! And finally a song that we can hear all the teentop members voice clearly instead of niel all the time. Love this song!

Eighth, The script - For the first time.
Rare for me to listen to english songs, but this is really good :D

Nineth, FTIsland - Confession.
It's hard not to fall in love with this song, it's just too sweet especially with the voices of ma boys~

Tenth, Hyuna feat. Zico - Just Follow.
Original was feat. DOK2, but i personally like ZICO more hehehehe xD So yep, i'm sharing Zico's version (: I like hyuna's cool style instead of the 'bubble pop' style. She suits this more! :D So hawtttt~ Zico's really great too <3

Eleventh, Katelyn Tarver - Love alone.
Really nice and emotional english song that kept me engaged for a long time! (:

Twelveth, Tata Young - Burning Out.
Really old song i guess, but it's good :D Tata's voice is always so nice heheh!

Thirteenth, N-Train - One last cry.
This is quite an old song, like early half of the year. Ahh, reminds me of Jungkyun's tweet reply xD Hahahaha, N-train has got really good vocals i should say, but i guess they're underrated ): Oh and Yujin's cute LOL

Fourteenth, U-Kiss - Neverland.
Great beat, great feel. This is kind of a powerful song to me. (: U-kiss is improving nonstop (Y)! Kevin dongho soohyun xD "Money love fashion fame"

Fifteenth, U-Kiss - Someday.
Kevin's english hohohohoo xD This song has a nice background music with meaningful and encouraging lyrics. Love it or hate it, i guess it's hard to hate it!

Sixteenth, U-Kiss - Take me away.
Really emotional song.. but i really like it a lot (: "somebody take me away, cause i can't take this pain"

Seventeenth, Block B - Freeze.
A.. very shiok song LOL. I like how the whole song goes, it just makes me happy LOL! :D "Fuck this" Lol, kena ban though, such a waste.

Eighteenth, 嚴爵 - 好的事情.
A really nice song that's quite.. sad? It's about love la obvious (:

Nineteenth, JPM - 因爲有你.
I really can't stand how handsome 廖俊傑 and 邱翊橙 are! Yes i'm ignoring 王子's presence. 小傑 and 毛弟 are good enough (: Wanted to share '那不是雪中紅' 's music video, but i decided not to cause got that thing -.-

Twentieth, 謝和絃 - 於是長大以後.
The lyrics are really meaningful (: And R.Chord's really awesome, he's not an idol, but a 音樂人. Really like his music and his attitude (:

Twentyfirst, 鄧福如阿福 - 如果有如果
This girl has got really melodic voice, which suits this song very well! She's talented (:

Twentysecond, 李雅微 - 我們的紀念
Song from a drama really long ago, called 放羊的星星. Chanced upon it somehow, and yeh the song is still as awesome.. A really emotional song though..

Twentythird, 魔幻力量 - 放了自己
Encouraging song for you to let go, Lol! It's good to listen to such songs (:

That's all for now.. spammed a lot already LOL xD
ANYWAY I SHALL FIND SOME TIME TO POST ABOUT.. MY IDOLS HEHEHEH. BYE.

2011-09-18T20:51:00.001+08:00

放了自己放了回憶
放了那配不上你的傷心

See, my Xiaoyu and Eeteuk. (: Well i'm not going to give a shit to those that feel that my lollipopf is an embarrassment. Well just fuck off, Haters. You've got absolutely no rights to comment or even criticize them. So just shoo. Thanks uh. I knew such things would happen right from the start so whatever i'm just gonna act like i didn't see all the Crap you people say about them. Kthxbai.

Kay, actually I've got stuff to blog about.. But i cant have a proper post for now thanks to studies. Like obviously i'm having prelims now.. I'll post something real soon, like right after the prelims end alright. (: Like a total stressed out now.. Hmm..

As i said, I'll post a proper post and hopefully a long one after prelims which is like Wednesday? (: So i shall just Crap abit here and there for now.. Kay, first is that tomorrow is the release of 'A-cha' , super junior's repackage of 5jib. (: really looking forward! Well, despite having disgusting papers tomorrow too )': hmm i've really got alot to say, but cant post it all right now.. Rahhh, i hope i can still remember those things that i want to post by the time i'm really able to post a proper one.. If i forget, then.. I also dk how lol x:

Need to get more optimistic these days, and Yeh accept everything well.. Time flies, treasure it. Hmm that's almost all for now.. Damn.. ): back to amath and humangeog, Byeeeee.. ):

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2011-09-05T19:35:00.004+08:00

噢學會放手學會看透學會看你遠走
只是我的心還沒有做好準備接受
Whoa, i really want lots and lots of beanies! All colours come on~ xD
Beanies are nice like!@#$%^&*( okayyy! (: Now i've only got a light blue.. I want those red in the picture, sunshine yellow, electric blue, white(yes i can be smurf), black etc. Any nice nice colour will do lalala~

Alright, anyway updates of the week, okay so called la. (:
I don't actually remember what i did anyway, prolly just a few that i remember? Last week was a short week, only having to return to school on wednesday and thursday. So, i don't remember anything that happened on monday and tuesday.. -.- Like seriously, totally 沒有映像. I wonder if i spent the whole day rotting at home for those two days.. x:

Alright, so wednesday, had english paper for prelim 2 (: The questions was quite tough for me actually.. yeh, i'm poor in english (and every other bloody subject anyway), but i tried my best la! Rushed home right after the papers and writing on the various teachers' day cards the class prepared. Had to miss Mid Autumn Festival celebrations in school cause i've got things that are more worth my time to do xD EH i wanted to go for maf at first, but seriously, i got the date wrongly, so i ended up not going.. Sorry my lovely CO juniors for not being able to watch you guys perform ): But i know your don't really care so whatever.. insignificanceeeeee. Kay, so i rested for awhile at home before leaving to meet nicole and cindy for SS3 3D premiere at Plaza Sing. Like damn long never go there onlyyyyyy. Oh, anyway, i went around telling everyone that i was going to go for a date that night instead of watching a movie xD LOL YEH BABY I WAS HAVING A DATE WITH MA BOY, YESUNGGIEEE~ LOL :D Anyway i felt stupidly generous that day so i got scammed off 2bucks by some random person.. -.-

All i can say is that SS3 3D was really great, though the 3D effects weren't superb, but it's better than nothing (: HAHAH and the fact that i was watching the premiere (31aug) makes me feel so vip cause the actual showing starts only on 1sept xD Thanks to trulyelfs LOL! Oh, and bad thing was i actually dislike the theatre i was in.. Like i was the only cloud (fyi, cloud = yesung's fans) in the theatre, and no one continued to chant for heechul even after i started.. Total disappointment la.. ): Felt so awkward at first for being the only one shouting for yesung, but i eventually start to not give a damn to the rest, i'm fine for him to be only mine you see? xD Like, yes yes ma boy's mine (: However i still can't get over the fact that no one helped to continue chanting for heechul LIKE OMG. ): Well, i cried much lesser than expected that day though.. Cause it's like the day before heechul's enlistment.. ): Kay, anyway i enjoyed the show despite all the spoilsports and that the concert was cut until like dk whattttt. So, steph suddenly texted to tell us that heechul tweeted when we just left the theatre, so nicole immidiately raped her tweetdeck, and tada.. heechul's haircut selca.. Jitao tears started to fall again.. Called junyi aftermath to ask if everyone's still in school, but apparently everyone's went home already.. LOL so i went home too.. i wanted to go back to school for maf -.-

Thursday was aces day cum teachers' day celebration. Worst thing is that i'm suspicious of the school for changing the wifi password.. It was such an important day yet i wasn't able to connect to the wifi at all, screw you retarded school! ): Aces walk was as retarded as ever but i managed to finish it with crazybum kimberly blasting songs with me hahahah xD Was thinking about heenim full time for the whole time in school though.. Had some fun for class bonding(?) which made me forget about the sadness and pain for some time (: Then, the teachers' day concert made me feel horrible again.. x: It wasn't because of the performances but myself. i kept staring at the clock as if i was addicted to it.. The feeling's simply horrible la. Then at 12.15pm, which was 1.15kst, which is the exact time heechul's going in, the concert ended and we were released. Guess what? The host was saying 'see you next year', and i turned to yaying who was beside me and said, 'see you in two years time..' like tada, tears started to fill again.. ): And anyway my contacts was being a bitch for the whole day and my nose was affected so much too. But that was really the only time i cried that day.. Went to the toilet after we were released to remove my contacts, but i ended making everyone think that i was hiding in the toilet to cry -.- like seriously, is contacts, please believe me!

Went for lunch with limhui and yaying before going home, and yaying randomly came to my house. She was obviously lucky to not go to hollandv cause she didn't being her calculator and that she intended to do math LOL. Yeh, so we spent the whole afternoon and evening together, hahah~

Went to watch smurfs with jiahui, sweeting, junyi, clarice, limhui on friday. Smurfs was Smurfing cute! :D I really like smurfs anyway~ Kay, so i was late cause i overslept x: Went to scape's x-zone after the movie and played pool with sweeting and limhui. Limhui totally don't know how to play so it was quite.. funny la xD Sweeting quite zai though! Anyway jiahui left to find her mum, and junyi and clarice was under age LOL. Okay, anyway we went home right after that.. like around 5? ): Damn emo, don't like to go home so early if i actually went out, but forget it since everyone was heading for somewhere else/home.. ): Went to bpp to buy mrbean before coming home. Yeh that's all.

Hmm, anyway i lead a sad life la, whatever.
picts./

Our well respected kimheechul (:
He still looks so handsome in army cut right! xD Anyway it's the fifth day already, and there're news that he's being appointed as the leader, LOL! Kinda cool~ Hahahah, hope he's doing well inside, and i think he actually is! Well, anyway i still miss him~
우유빛깔 김희철 사랑해요 김희철 기다릴께 김희철!

2011-08-28T23:12:00.014+08:00

我不是一定要你回來只是儅又把記憶翻開
除了你之外的空白還有誰能來叫我愛

Okay, first, do i really look like snoopy?
I don't think so, but many people are saying so, Lol x:

Last tuesday was a great day! Had school as per normal, but went to meet Jasmine and Cindy after school instead of going for night study. Well, since wednesday was O level English oral, it wasn't good to stay for night study. (: Kay, i was really late since i was taking my own sweet time going to teckwhye, hehehe so sorry to make jas wait for so long x: Met her at their school's eco canteen! I studied a bit of oral there okayyy! :D Completely bored Jasmine out i guess, since she had nothing to do, hehehe! Talked about Lollipop, hehehe! So many things about them.. (:
Anyway, sat there for more than an hour since we had to wait for Cindy's lessons to end, then we went to meet Cindy at her locker, LOL! The sight was quite funny, but really thank Cindy so much to carry two bags of stuff to school xD Kay, so i collected all my stuff from her all at once since i didn't meet Nicole they all the previous time.
LOLLIPOP F Album x2
SS3 Photobook
SuperJunior 5Jib
SS3 japan tee
Posters
LOL! Like a whole mega load that went into my bag.
Teased both of them a lot, hehehee! So glad that they didn't have anything/anyone to tease me about xD Guess i was lucky? Actually met Cindy's erhhhem by chance! :D Went lotone for dinner aftermath and talked a lot, it's been quite some time since we all met out~ yeh, that's almost all, and chanced upon chaisim while leaving lotone (:
Hahaha, exciting part of the night. Note: i'm a pathetic shit that buys everything without my parent's acknowledgement and will be killed if they knew. Kay, so i had to bring everything home that night. managed to stuff everything into my bag other than my posters. Hmm, my bag was kinda squarish thanks to my enormous and square shaped 5jib.. Alright, i was wondering how i'm going to smuggle everything into my room without the old man realising, since he's usually in the leaving room for the whole journey home. Things ended up, my dad was in the toilet when i went home. Like.. PHEWWWW. Lucky only luh, so i just quickly went into my room, unloaded everything to a safe place before he came out of the toilet xD I hope he will never realise my collection, if not i'm sure to be killed x: Even though my collection isn't like a lot, but i think it's already a lot to my parents already.. like kiamsiap you see? xD

Wednesday was ma boy's birthday, yes, YESUNG KIMJONGWOON! :D
I bet he was with me, and i'm grateful for him since english oral was quite simple! Hehehe, idc i'm going to thank him for that. I really hope he had a really good birthday this year, love him much! <3 Thanks Jiahui for her starbucks treat! :D Kay, counted as share kay, i just drank her cup la (: Went central for drinks inbetween oral and night study. Didn't buy anything since i was obviously broke that week -.- Went Koi after starbucks, then after sweeting finished ordering, jiaen called to order. Poor limhui went to queue for her, but what's worse.. Alast called right after limhui finished ordering. LOL End up this sad guy got no Koi since he's unlucky! Sorry though~

Ss and Emath paper 2 on friday.. Marks the start of Prelim2 ): And guess what, i've got 0% positive feelings for both papers. I tried really hard, seriously.. Guess i need to work many more times harder for the rest of the papers. Other papers are just round the corner, english papers this coming wednesday.. ): Praying will not work la.. I NEED A BLOODY BRAIN. Omg ): I really feel horrible for both papers la, whatever.. Shan't talk about them. hmph. Went with the girls to Jp aftermath for lunch. Benten cafe for them, and yes i sat there stupidly, and rubbish bin like. ): Ate some of jiahui's since she couldn't finish and had greentea icecream that made my owe limhui 1buck xD Seriously, i'm a matcha icecream loverrrrr~ Hehehehe, Matcha icecream makes me happy :D

Today's Inkigayo stage was the last stage Heechul will be on for Mr.Simple ): The boys were crying hard, especially teuk.. I was a total emotional the whole time.. I cried too.. Despite all the sadness and how we can't bare to see Heechul leave for 2 years, we ELF will always be here waiting for his return. Yes, we will. (: I want heechul to be happy, even though he'll also be leaving us, but he's strong, i know, he was so strong, smiling even when his other members were in tears during today's winning stage. Yet, that's actually the most painful scene to watch ): #wewillwaitforkimheechul Yes, this was trending 1st worldwide on twitter for quite some time. i hope heechul saw that, it's a promise from us elf. We'll never leave ya'll (:

What's worse, I'll be watching SS3 3D This wednesday.. 'ouch' ): It pricks, i guess.. I hope i won't cry that day because of heechul. Lol, but actually i know i will la.. ): Especially when wednesday is the 31st, and he'll be leaving for the army on the 1st of september ): Can't bare it, but it's a must.. Aish ):

That's all for the week, anyone reading this, and seeing that i'm not studying this coming week can just slap me tight. Cause it's really the time to study, especially when this is actually a really late start. Just need to wake me up alright? I need a good lesson to buck up -.- Kk, that's all for now.. Pictures! (:

Here, Our Kimheechul, Heenim, @Heedictator #wewillwaitforkimheechul

Lastly, Our Birthday boy, 2408' Yesung Kimjongwoon :D

First time having yesung as the less important.. ): Sorry boy, but your heechul hyung is leaving for army and just a few days time, i know you'll understand (:

2011-08-22T19:34:00.001+08:00

休息是為了走更長的路
但我遺失了地圖

Yo. Its been long since i posted right.. Well idk why but i just haven't.got the time to. And now, i'm actually posting during night study. Lol, take a break Yeh? (:
Life's been hard. Having to get crashed by everything i'm facing. Nothing is going the right way, i guess. At least for me, nothing is. Tough, yet, what can i do other than getting on with life? Oh well, I've just developed a horrible habit of ranting nonstop.. Like each and every day, I've got things to rant. That's simply killing me.
I do hope all this will just stop Kay. I really need to concentrate and do well in Prelim 2 and Ofcourse olevels. Hell yeah its just a few days later! -.-
Whatever.
I'll be strong. This isn't the time to collapse. Like seriously, i hope i won't fail in my own face, that's like so unacceptable. Hahah x: come on, i need to stop being an emoshit. Wake up yoxz, just wake up!
Another thing. I'm Effing sad.. First, heechul's enlisting into the army on the first of September. That's like next week? I'll miss him like Crap man seriously.. Heenim, I'll wait for you patiently alright? (:
Also, i'm disliking dream team. Ha. Thanks for injuring my boys huh.. I really hope they can recover soon.. No joke la, i dont want yesung to have such birthday present alright? Waist and spine, hello! Do you know how important those are? -.- annoyed.. Please, ma boy, get well soon alright? Donghae, hyukjae, sungmin too..

Bye for now. Gonna get back to math. Yeshhhh, a total sad life i'm having..

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2011-08-07T20:30:00.004+08:00

沒有你的世界我不懂快樂有多容易
在這少了你的交換日記只剩我孤單在結局
hellohello(:
good stuff or bad stuff first? i've got both well prepared, hahah!
Well, i'll go for the good first, then people can stop reading if they're not interested in the bad (: How nice of me xD

Good #1, i haven't been having too much of conflicts at home already, since i've been going for night study for most of the days, thus less interaction with parents, so better relations? (: Hahaha, yeh, this is good. At least i don't feel so disgusted everytime i come home LOL!
Good#2, i'm getting used to the new sitting arrangement already. Though there's no more zhenjun for me to kachiao everyday ): Guess it's not bad for junyi to be somewhere near me since she's such a smart ass, right? (: I really need to improve improve improve! There isn't much time left.. Like seriously, wtf, it's august already?! -.-
Good#3, I managed to control myself from going to Derrickhoh's 簽唱會 on friday! I really wanted to go, but i stayed for night study instead. I'm so proud of myself (: Even though i felt quite down cause of that cause it's really been quite some time since i last met derrickhoh, which was what.. LOLLIPOP F's 簽唱會?! Hahahah, but at least i saw him for quite a few times already la (: I still remember chancing upon him many years back at vivo with my sisters, Lol, he was in NS than lo, jitao botak xD
Good#4, Yes, Mr.Simple (: Super Junior's 5jib is finally out! Also, 3 of their stages on Music Bank, Music Core and Inkigayo comeback stages were all successful (: Much thanks to 5jib and comeback stages, i could keep smiling (: This ten boys are really great! So are Kibum, Kangin and Hankyung. Henry and Zhoumi too! I'm proud to be an ELF (: Anyway, i just thought of how embarrassing the situation was when the first teaser video came out xD It was totally Chem lesson la, then i received nicole's text saying that the teaser was out. Damn lucky that i was able to connect to wifi that time~ fyi my classroom's wifi super horrible, like the signal damn weak -.- Oh well, anyway, i managed to connect and was screaming hard inside myself watching the teaser silent. LOL, as if i muted myself. Sorry Vonz for not paying attention at that time xD
Good#5, Today's United Cube special stage on Inkigayo! BEAST, 4MINUTE, G.NA (: It's the first time they're performing 'Fly So High' at music programmes right? :D Damn happy, hehehe! Furthermore, the boys were looking damn gorgeous! :D Especially YONGJUNHYUNG cause everything about him is dropdead gorgeous to me, JANGHYUNSEUNG who looked really super handsome and i really like his outfit, and is YANGYOSEOB's hair! (:
Good#7, Information that RITS and SM discussing about having SS4 in Singapore! (: Probably the last time being able to see them all until the boys are discharged from army.. Eeteuk, heechul, and even yesung will be in soon, so are the rest.. So yes, SS4 is freaking important and i'm never gonna miss it. Pretty please, make it next year! Cause i really need time to earn money and safe up. Worse still i'm still in massive debt, fml ahhh.. ):
Good#8, Smurf movie coming out on 1september LOL! I so want to catch it cause i think smurfs are really super adorable xD HAHAHAHA! As blue as AVATAR and like a million times cuter than them LOL! Also, 阿緯's action movie will also be up in the cinemas in September, if i didn't remember wrongly~ 敖犬's 那些年, 我們一起追過的女孩 Movie too, will be brought into Singapore in November i think? :D It just feels good to be able to see them on the huge screens (:

Alright, that's all for the goodies, prolly none relates to you but whatever, as long as i like it, hurhur xD Shall share Mr.Simple at the bottom of the post (:

Baddies will be up.. ): Just some views and feelings alright.
Bad#1, standard, academics. I still feel stupid no matter what. Getting a 17/40 for physics paper one now is absolutely no joke.. Can't be getting such screwed up results by now. Hello, prelim2 is in a few weeks, and so is olevels. When would i 開竅!? -.- Desperately need to 開竅 soon la. Amath too, Chem too. Almost every subject la.. i need to work harder and get smarter. Really need to.
Bad#2, Seriously, what's with having to take Chinese for Prelim2 after already taking Olevel chinese?! Oh and another thing is i'm really worried for my Olevel chinese results. Screw it. I want a freaking A. A2 also can, just don't give me another B3 or even worse than that.. I'll get depression yoxz.
Bad#3, I'm getting broke almost every week, and not able to safe up to pay my debts. Not even bacause i'm spending it by buying my own stuff la. I'm like only spending my allowance on food, transport, and school stuff like TYS and Class photo? Fml yoxz.. Now my debt like boooomxz, how am i supposed to finish repaying them? And worse still i'm having a huge list of 'want to buys' which doesn't include SS4, United Cube Concert? Kill meeeee ):
Bad#4, i'm getting internally killed. This is getting very very bad, and even deteriorating as days pass. Everything about this is killing me. Yet, i still have to keep laughing and smiling all the time, hurhur. Kay, probably that's still the best way to keep it in? But that's really keeping it in to kill me deep inside LOL. Like wtf, isn't it? It's just killing me. Fuck my life.
Bad#5, i can't seem to find any importance of myself. It's like, it doesn't seem to matter at all to the world, even if i disappeared some day. Insignificance, is all about me. I'm nothing but a passerby. Not important, not significant, nothing. I'm even worse than air.. at least it's important right? I'm nothing.
Bad#6, i'm feeling like my soul's gone for quite sometime.. 我就只是個軀殼. It's as if I'm living like a zombie, playing on with life without any meaning.. All i can feel is pain, like.. ouch, it hurts. And i'm getting abit of 'too easily getting hurt' now -.-
Bad#7, If i ever tell you that i don't like to be called a fangirl, stop it. Seriously, i don't like to be named after the term 'fangirl'. Kay, though i may be one, but come on, you can call me a FAN, but not a fangirl. Thanks uh. Fangirl still sounds like some bimbotic xiaomeimei to me, no offence, but i just don't like it.
Bad#8, Won't be able to meet B1A4 at all, yes they're in Singapore now. Arrived this afternoon, but obviously i was at my grandmother's place. Not stalking nor going to hotel since i'm not really a great fan of them, having some dk what thing at warren tomorrow with family so won't be at Illuma to catch the guys, neither going to suntec since i don't have ticket on tuesday. Yeh, so welcome to singapore, and byebye.

Yeh, that's all hahahahah, didn't go into detail for stuff that shouldn't be told to the whole world, so yeh. (: I wish life gets better.. Anyway, i'll continue smiling and laughing as if my life's doing great, so no worries, i'll just cry inside me. Well, and it's time, i guess, to hide myself, and not open up to everyone. Kind of enjoy being antisocial anyway? I just need by earpiece and phone, then i would be able to stay silent for a long time without any interaction with people. (:
I'll end with these.

Now, a present for y'all (: Watch them shine~
Mr.Simple - Super Junior

Oh and another thing, a song i really like (:
Ugly - 2NE1

2011-07-30T13:57:00.002+08:00

我只想再哭一下下把記憶徹底的分化
等哭完我就會回家眼淚我會替自己擦

Haven't been able to blog these days, having to stay in school for night study almost everyday..
Even though i can't say that night study has been very productive, i can guarantee that it is much more productive as compared to being at home, where it's simply too hard to do work.
Alright, so, life's been full of daily routines of wake up>school>night study>home>sleep and the cycle repeats itself. I hope this is actually beneficial to me, if not i'll just go and commit suicide.. -.- Just want my results to improve and that olevels come to an end like as soon as possible. How many days do i have left? 80+? This is getting really tough ):
Need to keep finding different types of motivation to keep me going. This is so uber tiring.. sad life max ): I'm even ditching my comp for many days, even though i've been using my phone x: Well, it's a good start for me though.. Just hope that things will go on pretty well, and stop my negative life.

Feel like ranting about my negative life.. Lol! Ranting alert(?)
Life's been so sad, so tough, so painful. Everything that's happened in my life is getting so negative, and that 'negative-negative positive' hasn't been working well in my current situation at all.. Everything just sucks -.-
Studies, mood, surroundings, people, money, and everything else! Everything just can't go right.. Trying so hard to study well, study smart, yet i still can't get smarter, can't achieve better results. Have been laughing crazily and starting lame stuff, but somehow, something deep within me keeps pulling me down. Tired days after night study, got home just to face weird people making noise, eww. Trying so hard to get out of it, yet i'm still the one that got hurt in the end. Broke and broke and broke, debts piling, wtf am i doing.
I wonder why i can't live a better life, maybe it's karma? Or have i sinned? Life, what's wrong, seriously.. Annoyedbylife_95. -.-

Well, at least there are those little things that can make me really happy for at least a few minutes. Superjunior 5jib teasers, my junhyungie being back on twitter, the approaching of 3August and such.. (:

Prolly, i just have to be contented with my life, no matter how hard it gets..
At least, i've got places for me to rant, blog, wretch, twitter, weibo? Well, need to get more optimistic now, need to stop all the negative thoughts cramped in me now, even though it's really hard.. like obviously, negatives are negative how am i supposed to make them positive, ohmanxz..

2011-07-22T20:32:00.000+08:00

看著你我比誰都還難過
希望他可以給你更多更多

Hello, yeh i'm back here again even though i just blogged yesterday, hurhur! Cause i just felt like blogging, hehehehe! (:
Today's been quite a good day, even though it's not the happiest nor the most enjoyable day, but it's just quite not bad? It started off well since i managed to remember every single thing that i need to pack into my bag this morning, which doesn't usually happen.. x: Oh well, pe attire, phone charger, cereal! Hehehe, i really like cereals these days. Cereal makes me happy :D
Went to school as usual! Oh anyway, i really like kappa, LOLOLOL. I know this is hell yeah random, but it's the truth, even though the design last time was much nicer, i feel so different whenever i'm wearing kappa school shoes. It's like what, sense of belonging? Hahahah, yes i'm weird, ikr, bleh. I just feel safer and more 'myself'.. It's just a feeling luh! (: A feeling that i like, kind of notifying me that i'm finding myself back? LOL! Even though it makes hell loads of screeching sounds when i try to shuffle or even run and ball x:
Played some NE game for cep at the computer lab, and took that opportunity to go look at suju's 5jib teaser picture, which was eeteuk today! Frankly speaking, 5jib concept is kind of weird.. Everyone doesn't look like themselves! Making me worried about my yesungie x: Pandian didn't come for physics, so it was a free period, did a little physics with yinghui and sweeting and started playing with jiaen's ukulele. Hmm we're such failures hurhur xD
Bball for PE since it was raining heavily, well lucky shit, cause we were supposed to run.. I really like the super cold breeze while balling, it just feels shiok (: Hahahaha, and balling with kappa is another cool feeling xD HAHAHAHH I feel like a paranoid shit that's in love with my shoes, but i'm serious, it's a total different feeling from my previous everlast -.- It just feels much better LOLOLOL xD
Math was a bore cause i just can't do graph questions well, but today's questions were quite managable? (: Watched movie for chinese again, Bruce lee? LOL, speechless. Was trying to shuffle and teaching zihui outside the room. Idk why but i simply look weird shuffling, because of my face?! Kimberly and Elijah says so, whatever ): As long as i'm doing it correctly, just cover my face yoxz!

Went to try the performance thing after school since everyone has to wait for the 5pm talk. I think it's kind of weird at some parts, but quite okay overall, plus no one seems to have any comments? Tried to get the freaking tune of the song, which i'm obviously not familiar with.. aish.. ):
PTC was retarded, sarah talked to me more than she talked to my mum! My poor mum was panting like mad walking from central to school LOL! Furthermore, she walked back after ptc.. Is she like mad? x: Slacked around with sweeting until it was almost 5pm, and went to the hall for the talk. Apparently, it was such a useless talk since it's just common sense.. Oh well~ Spent the whole time staring into my phone, using twitter and randomly whatsapping people xD Heheheeh!
Left school right after the talk, met my parents at central, ate dinner and went home, and also drove limhui home LOL! Crapped a bit on my father's van.. Hahahaa it's so fun to flick limhui's lap xD wheeeee!

Okay, i'm just crapping about my boring lifestyle~
I feel like being a more useful person, really. I want to be one that is smarter, bright, sociable, and everything nice.. It's like i really feel like a total loser sometimes. I'd just feel that i'm so stupid that i know nothing, so horrible that i can't do anything well, and so disgusting that there isn't anyone around for me.. Hmm, got to get myself back on my feet it being a much better and useful person. It's a little wish that i really wish i won't let myself down upon (:
Guess i need to work harder, but what am i supposed to work on? x:

2011-07-21T22:11:00.004+08:00

我說能不能夠能不能夠讓時間停留
在你還沒放手的時候
Nice right the pict Lol, i forgot when i took this already, it's either i was feeling real great that day or it was the opposite, hurhur! Cause i don't usually walk home from the busstop yeh (:
I just think that it looks cool somehow xD
Hmm, i obviously haven't blogged on my lovely 楊奇煜's birthday, and i kinda give up on blogging it, sorry boyyyyyy ): It's not that i want to just skip it, but i really can't find the time to type everything out nicely.. there're really a lot of stories to tell laaaaaa.. Hmm, prolly i'll be able to post a really great one next year? Hahahahah, studies is pushing too hard on me la..
I believe fabienyangqiyu will forgive me for that right? :D
Alright, hmm have to blog about kmw and my boreass life too..

Life's been, so-so these days, nothing much to say about it. It's like ups and downs, happiness and emotions, yes and no, here and there. Yeh, things hasn't been happening consistantly. It's like, it can be alright for some times, and goes really horrible the next moment. Kind of unexpected, sudden, shocking lifestyle everyday. Hahahaa, i really really get speechless at times like that. So, i'll end up shutting up, hurhur x:
Well well, i hope life's gonna get better soon! Probably more laughter, more positive feelings, more optimistic mindset and thinking, and the most importantly, i better lifestyle. Just want to live happily yoxz, stop playing with my feelings yoxz! (:
Hahaha, but somehow i think it's getting a little better than what it was previously. I really think so, cause i'm not feeling as horrible as before anymore, even though i still do for a little x: It's an improvement at least? Ah, shall be contented with that! Thanks to all the lessons learnt, though i'm not one that actually learns from lessons in life, even though i like force myself to do so, i really learnt some things from them. Lessons that'll never be taught in the stupid textbooks we have in school. Things that are much more useful than all those crazy reference books, at least they're really useful for being a living human!

Kay, life's been good after prelim1, even though the results were disgustingly horrible for a sec4, and yes tomorrow is ptc ): Used to it actually, guess there isn't a time where i did not have to go for ptc in these four years in nhhs, it's like i'm the regular customer woohoo! I don't really mind my mum talking to my teachers actually, as long as they don't talk cock about me, i'm fine (: I bet sarah's just going to talk about my horrible results once again, fringe, attire, and how i should study. That's all that she can say luh, like everyone knows what she's going to talk about..
Anyway, i shall check with zhenjun again tomorrow, hahahahahahah! Hopefully i'll remember to ask him if 王俐仁 was really kind of his ideal type xD Still can't forget how excited he was when he talked about her LOL!

Well, shan't say so much.. Hmm, happy racial harmony day? Today was quite a good day i should say (: Somehow, it was quite great for me! Since i caught Harry Potter with Limhui junyi and jiaen this afternoon, and limhui was plain funnnnneh, i'm happy la kay :D
Hmm, kind of look forward to tomorrow, but i really hope everything's going to turn out positively and happily :D Simply hope so (: for now, bye!
Shall find some time to post a little about kmw? Or i may end up giving up on it too, hahahah i shall seeeee.

2011-07-09T23:47:00.007+08:00

一字一句一瞬間走了火
一天一點一轉眼入了魔
It all happened on 070211 (:
Until now my parents still didn't know anything about that day, Lol! Cause i sneaked out saying that i was going to study x: Well, i don't really care anyway!
Woke up early in the morning and trained all the way to Expo to meet Nicole, Stephanie and friends. Thanks to them for buying my breakfast for me too! Hehehe (: The queue for merchandise outside max pavillion was average-length at that time, like 10+(?). Thanks to the organiser to only bring in 200/merch, we had to queue for the merchandise -.- At least, they were nice enough to start selling earlier than the stated timing (: While we were waiting for the time to pass as we were queueing, i was like making use of my time to eat my breakfast, text, chat, write my letter to junhyung, and full time sweating! Lol, total sauna yoxz.. It was fun talking to them, hehehe new friends made too! :D Yes, Singapore B2uty :D

Sales started off at about 1pm instead of 2pm, one hour less of sweating, yesh xD Happyb2uty_95 here got myself the slogan towel and tee! :D Hehehee, was so tempted to get the picket, like 'oh come on YONGJUNHYUNG so hawt i feel like getting it!', but i resisted (: Cause i'm broke, and it's kind of useless, so yeh, slogan and tee will do! :D Sort out our items and proceeded to expo, the air-conditioned shiok place. Tada, unlucky me, my slippers broke cause steph's friend accidentally stepped on it. Hahaha, but i was lucky enough that there was robinsons' sale at expo xD Even though it was a total super bloody embarrassing to walk with my broken reddie all the way from max pavillion to expo x: So, i managed to get a new pair of slippers from robinsons sale LOL! Nicole went home after that, so i joined stephanie and friends to talk and spazz a bit xD LOL! It's never boring when fangirls get together, like totally, unless it's those 'ewwww' kind yeh x:

Went to look for yaying and kimberly when they reached max pavillion. Passed my letter to Kimberly, and went roaming around max pavillion with yaying as we talked! Got to know much of their hotel experience xD They're really that bunch of super lucky fans i should say~ envious max, but it's alright! Walked yaying to the queue when it was time, sent her in and walked away, only to meet stephanie and friends in the queue again! LOL! So i sent them into the hall too Hahahahaa! xD Yesyesyes, i'm the poorthing without a ticket into the fanmeet venue ): Sad or what? hmph.. Oh, and i met the b2uty who was in the same group during famine camp too, i didn't expect her to remember me, but yeh, cool! xD

Spent some time alone staring blankly into space around the foyer at max pavillion xD It's absolutely possible for people to think that i'm weird and has too much free time, hahaha x: Went to the entrance to the fanmeet hall when i felt that the fanmeet was about to start, yes i estimated well xD Stood outside the door like some retard, but thank god there're like around 10 more retards standing there with me LOL! Saw some tragic fangirl drama outside and it was kinda dumb and funny, but yeh i just amchio cause i was afraid i'd get killed if i laughed out loud yeh xD Grateful to the guy guarding the door, cause he left the door open for us to at least listen to what was happening inside (: However, the 'so near yet so far' feeling was piercing manxz.. D: Just felt so down.. Then idk why but suddenly talked to this girl who's also outside (: New friend, LOL! :D Sat down and talked a bit. Pathetic situation sitting outside the fanmeet venue for most of the fanmeet, DAMN EMO CANNNNNN! D:

Then there were a few other b2uties that found another door that was actually unlocked! Watched a girl ran into the venue, and as others were still thinking whether they should chiong in or not, the girl and i held hands and ran right in! :D Seriously, it was the first time doing such thing and is was a total crazy and scary xD The organisers saw us but didn't care, Lol, luckily~ By the time we got in, it was the time were everyone was preparing for the encore stage! :D Then the both of us were jumping and screaming like crazy, hahahaha! 'Ohmygawd we did it!' Exciting, hehehehe xD Spent the last few minute of the fanmeet INSIDE THE VENUE! :D Extremelyhappyb2uty_95 LOLOLOL! Even though we were still quite far away from the stage, i still felt really great, at least i managed to see them eh (: If i didn't manage to get in, i'll regret for life cause i wouldn't be able to see them at all x: Fancam was mostly screen since the stage was really far away, but the boys were really great! :D SO BEAST~ Hehehehee!

Yoondoojoon, Janghyunseung, Yongjunhyung, Yangyoseob, Eegikwang, Sondongwoon :D
Hmm, so after the fanmeet ended, the girl and i parted, Lol funny thing is that we didn't even know each others name at all xD The only thing i asked before i went off to look for stephanie was 'eh what's your twitter name?' LOL! Twitter's convinient eh? xD Well, but it was great to be with her that night! (: Like seriously, we did it xD Hahaahaah! Tried calling yaying, but she didn't pick up, then i called steph, and went to look for her and friends :D Everyone was in that 'i haven't had enough of beast' mood ): Can totally understand how they were feeling, but no choice la!
The rest of the night was absolute failure so lets ignore it x: I hope my letter was able to get to junhyung through yaying's friend, i really hope soooo! Byed stephanie and felicia, and trained home from expo.. Tiring max! ):

Hmm, but after all, it was the worst experience i ever had, yet the best of the worst i should say (: Thanks to the six lovely boys yeh xD Especially junhyungie! He totally cried laaaaa.. Boy, don't worry, we b2uties are here to support you no matter what kay (: We aren't the type that would ditch you just because you've got a girlfriend alright? As long as Hara treats you well and you're happy, we'll be supportive, get it? :D (Kay, i know he won't see and he won't understand, but yeh just take it that i'm talking to myself x:) Ah, but seeing his tears breaks my heart.. ):

It's great for Beast to visit singapore for a fanmeet, thanks so much, now i'm anticipating United Cube Concert xD Please come next year anyway! I would die if you come this year, i'd like kill myself or something O: Hehehee, Thanks Beast, Thanks Cube, Thanks Manager, Thanks everyone, prepix, coordi noonas, etc! :D

Yes, this was how sad i was, sitting outside the venue.. ):
So near yet so far, sobs.. Yongjunhyung ahhh!

Beast 1st asia fanmeet tee! :D Purposely bought L so that it'll be hugeeee xD

Slogan towel! :D

"Just take my hand and fly~"
-Junhyungie, BEAUTIFUL - BEAST

2011-07-08T22:14:00.002+08:00

把你壓近心底騰空我的心理
我才又看見好的人出現在身邊

Hello! Finally i'm up to post again, this time round, i really have quite a lot to share! Hehehe (:
Haven't been posting for some time due to prelims, ohwell, i believe i'm not going to do well, but that's not going to demoralise me i hope? Just got to face reality and work harder i guess. Well, so i've been having prelim1 for the past two weeks. Sure enough, it was darn tough, but i managed to pull through this time round! Hahaha, i'm sure i'll still be able to do so for prelim2 and olevels yeh, hurhur xD I REALLY DO HOPE SO YOXZ! (:
Anyway, life's great, as long as it is unrelated to academics, family, and undesired relationships! I've got to learn how to enjoy life in this tough time (: Live life to it's fullest or something? I just wish it doesn't get screwed hehehee!
So, i've been studying for prelims the past two weeks, daily routine kay! Studied at home, macs, library, blehblahbloh. Guess efforts won't be paid off despite that, but i'll work harder next time (: Just so sick and tired of all the crap mugging and restlessness yoxz.. Whateverxz!

Went to yaying's house after chem paper1 on wednesday! Spent some time watching her fanvideos of beast :D (SHALL POST ABOUT BEAST LATER OKAY!? :D) Seriously, i really like her videos, is like woahhhh xD Totally daebak kay, despite her funny 'ahhhh~' here and there when yoseob pops up in front of her! Hehehehehee, envious max laaa! Yeh, but vvip ticket's pricing was really worth it for her :D Watched random beast videos too, had so much fun laughing at the boys LOLOLOL! JANGHYUNSEUNG really damn funny, can't stand him xD Hmm, and she kept saying my Yesung and Junhyung very weak, blehblahbloh, i like weak people meh? They so hawt come on! xD Yaying's a newly addicted B2uty anyway, she's like super addicted! Crazy girl! Studied quite a bit of physics too, since it's physics paper1 on thursday (: Studied till i almost fell asleep laaaa, tired max. Anyway, i really think that yaying's a good dancer! LOL, yes, she really is one, impressed max laaaa :D Watched Running man in Thailand with her too, the best part of the Kwangsoo and Haha was leaving the airport! Haha and his fanservice, Kwangsoo and is wonderment and awe xD Hehehehee! Left her house at some 8+, thanks to her for walking me to the bus stop, overhead bridge kay, if is me i'm sure i'll be lazy to climb that horrible thing twice x: Oops! B2uties yoxz! :D

Thursday was the last day of prelims, physics paper 1! Went to catch Transformers with the girls (: Strong addiction to bumblebee since the first series kay, hawt yellow car LOLOLOL! The movie was not bad la, i like it somehow, but meganfox-replace was kinda retard, yeh that's all. By the way, would anyone cry by watching transformers? O: It's either i'm retarded or i'm too emotional, hahahah, i seriously cried when bumblebee was leaving/was about to get banged x: So sad laaaa, affection towards bumblebeeeeee ): Kay, yeh nothing much to talk about la.. Hmm, i don't think Sam's hawt? Why is everyone saying that he is? Kay, prolly cause i'm not the angmo type, oh well~ i'll stay with my lovely asians xD Hehehehee! Had a short and retarded talk time with the girls in the middle of the road before parting off,sorryyyyeee i know i damn lame, but i like yoxz! Made Clarice, Jiaen and Limhui go to mos with me just to get my matcha greentea icecream xD IMMA HAPPY CHILDD YOXZ! I really like greentea icecream alright~ But MOF > MOS, Bleh, MOF's still best xD 180 back to panjang with limhui and clar, then 922. Sat for one whole round cause i was simply totally absolutely very lazy to get down the bus when it first came to the stop x:

Hehehehe, one great thing of 922 that pwns 920 is that it drives pass grps (: Fact is just by looking at the school compound reminds me of a thousand and one best memories i had there.. It's like, i still remember how we could just sit at the parade square for more than an hour just to talk after netball practices, and yes, how we trained together (: Podium, remembering how panic i was when i turned the wrong side while commanding during morning assembly.. Back of the hall, where all the usuals would camp there during assembly every morning/afternoon, doing duty, talk cock, play, and such.. Gate 3, which was like some illegal gathering area every morning (: It's like, memories are everywhere to be found.. Well, i really miss each and every one of you a lot. I'm not sure why i'm feeling so strongly about this these days, but i really missed those times.. Jiaqi, Mandy, Shannon, Hilda, Limin, Gloria, Chunen, Kamho, etc. etc. (: It's like almost everyone of our batch.. and teachers that've left like jumat, johnson, mrtan.. Ohman ):
Hmm, well i really miss everyone la, yeh. (:

People who know me better would know that bus rides are really the best times to run all sorts of thoughts in my mind. I think think about everything and anything during bus rides, and it'll normally affect my mood x: However, it's benefitting me in some way (: Like, i can really think about life much deeper than how i normally would, and would probably be able to get my own tangled thoughts sort out! Cool or what! Hurhur xD Yeh, so i've thought many things out during my bus rides (: One of which, was to stop being like a dog. I wasn't such a dog last time, so i'm not going to be too, in the future. I need to get back my attitude, my way of living, my own stand, and most importantly, myself (: Somehow i feel fake these days, though i may not really be fake, but i'm just not totally myself? I'm getting it back, i have to. Most importantly, i need to stop all distractions of thoughts. Idols are not part of it kay, they're not distractions, they give me the motivation, joy, and energy to live my life on and well yoxz xD

I need to know this clearly myself, and i need to learn this lesson hard and well, before i fall into a lump of shit and land myself into inner trouble again. I'm working hard. (:
Oh and part of this should be to eat less and freaking lose weight yoxz. Idc if it's prelims, but ii bet it is! Gained what 2kg during prelim period -.- Totally feel like killing myself, but i'm so blaming it on prelims, that made me sleep and some inhuman timing which made me hungry at what 2-3am everyday thus gobbled something down.. Sad max!

Ohyeh, that's about life these days, and 2 important posts gonna be up soon! :D

2011-07-01T20:52:00.002+08:00

我寂寞瘋了我空虛哭了
我的堅強已經睡了它睡得熟的香的

Love letter yoxz, got to start writing for junhyungie after i finish posting!
No time already laaaaa.. ):

Alright, it's been the most horrible week of this year so far this year.. x:
All thanks to my best friend, 'Prelim one' -.- this good friend of mine caused my deprive of sleep for the past week, caused my stress level to piuuuu~ to the top, caused my brain cells to die at a rate of 1.0 x 10^infinity braincells/s, and caused my complexion to worsen, caused eczema to get bitchy again and blablabla!
I'm so not gonna friend you yoxz. ):
Oh well, what's worse is that i still screw papers despite trying so hard studying like a bitch.. It has always been so, hard work not paid off. I'm so going to get it from the 3 aggressors when the results are back. Sad life or what.. Aish ):
I'd also like to know what's wrong with my brain, why does it have to be sucha noob ass when it comes to studying?

Ohwell, whatever la. Not going to worry about my results for now, especially when there're still papers awaiting my efforts. I really do hope i'll be able to do well, at least not flunk, the remaining few papers. Hope, though.
Can't imagine it's just prelim one and i'm like.. shag? How am i going to survive till the end of O'levels? .. ):

Aish, and there's something odd about me blogging. I will start blogging when i have many many things to blog about, but whenever i'm halfway through talking about my horrible study life, i tend to forget all about what i've wanted to blog about.. Shitxz la! Ranting causes short term memory siol D: self disappointment, aish.

Kk, so now idk what to say, and since it is so, i'm going to end soon. I need to remember what i wanted to blog about initially and blog about it soon luh, if not my life's going to be harder than ever ): Prolly the next time blogging will be after prelim one, like next thursday! Hehehee, guess i'm going to feel good eh? I'll just not think about the result uh xD It's too demoralising put my mind to..

So yeh, lastly, Happy birthday to SuperJunior's Leader, Eeteuk, Park Jungsu! :D
And hmm an early birthday to my husband yoxz! :D 0705, FABIENYANGQIYU!
I initially wanted to schedule a blog post for his birthday, but i decided not to, cause it makes no sense to schedule it now right? ): So, i shall post about it after the end of prelims. Sorry boy~ ):
Alright, got to get off from blogger and maybe start writing junhyungie's letter already~ I really hope that i'll be able to meet him and pass him his letter tomorrow! I'd cry if i'm unable to do so eh ): So, pray hard yoxz! Even though you've got Hara already, you're still mine HAHAHAHAH I DONT REALLY CARE YOXZ xD

2011-06-25T00:09:00.001+08:00

Trying out bloggeroid using phone.
Oh well, been studying for the past few days, sleeping at some 4-6am in the morning and waking up at some 12-2pm in the afternoon..
I'm wondering how i'm gonna wake up for school next week x:
Hmm, also, i wonder if i should sleep in the afternoon and wake up at night to study overnight and to go to school right after. Since studying in the night is much more productive for me?
But i kinda think i'm mad, so Yeh, i know i'm contradicting and like blabbering nonsense x:
Frankly, i wonder why i'm torturing myself with all this shit, it's like come on, i dont like to study and studies doesn't like me either! Hell Yeh, so why do i have to study like that? ): kinda sucks la, totally..
Rahhh, am i like stressed or what? I'm just getting so very super bloody tired of all these books. Even though know that studying is a must, i really cant stand it..
Sien max, sadass_95 ):

Oh well, nothing is going right in my life anyway. Haven't, isn't and never.
Face it, pohsooche.
You're nothing for the world to please, you're just as insignificant, useless, and disturbing as a dirt.
Bye.

2011-06-15T23:15:00.005+08:00

Girl這不是意外你是我的女孩
I Can't Get My Mind Off Ya, Off Ya, Off My Mind

Finally i'm blogging? After quite some time i guess?
Ahh, i kinda miss my blog xD

Hehehe, Anyway, the Eiffel tower now only reminds me of SMTOWN LIVE xD (Random~)

Alright, i shall recall all the bloggable stuff for the past few days!
Kay, so Chinese Olevels done, and the extra lessons in the holidays have all past (:
Those extra lessons were quite alright for me actually, at least i was able to complete a little of things here and there each day! Much better than now x:
Oh well, so the extra lessons past in a blink of an eye heheeh (:

6th was dongwoon's birthday :D BEAST MAKNAE WOOHOO xD
Then, 7th was FTISLAND's 4th anniversary :D , BEAST's 600days anniversary :D , and YESUNG's twitter one year anniversary xD LOLOLOL!
and of course the last day for extra lessons.

Class outing to Ubin with mrcheng on 8th! (:
All i can say is, ohyeh it was definitely a really great day, heheheee!
Met Joey, Limhui and Clarice 6.30 at bplrt and trained to tmmrt (yeh, kinda early Lol), then zihui hopped on at clementi. Apparently the four of us were the earliest to reach LOLOLOL. Went to get a milo energy bar from seveneleven Lol, DAMN NICE KAY :D
After some time everyone's reached so we proceeded to take the bus to the jetty(?)
Spammed songs with Limhui full time xD Hahahaaa, this crazy woman was being normal, so yeh, not bad Lol (: Boarded the boat to Ubin, kinda efficient? Hehhee! No doubts, the scenary from the boat was not bad hehehe, i just felt good Lol xD
Kay, so we decided on biking through Ubin! (:
Frankly speaking i started off as a total humji -.- cause i knew i may fall any moment and i just couldn't stable. (Hmm, sometimes i seriously wonder where the hell did my zainess i biking went to x: Hey i was able to cycle real well when i was in kindergaten/primary school luh, and my skills went rusty and made me a total noob now, fml ): ) Kay, so i started off at the back! Hmm, thousands of apologies and appreciation to Limhui, Yingchang, Zhengyu and Keejeng! Heehehe, thanks for keeping an eye on this noob here and sorry for hogging like mad x:
Hmm, so after much difficulties, i manage to catch up with the rest as we unmounted our bikes for chekjava! I just liked the clouds that day, hehehe xD
Had our 409 performances there! Kinda cool? xD 409's got talent HELLLOOO~ Ohwell, Thaiming's pickup lines was really funny anyway :D Took a few class photos and we're getting our butts of chekjava already!
Went to that idk what tower that was literally shaking when we were up there x: However, that's not the point! The point is jiahui was wo afraid of going up that she had to hold the railings using a hand and grab joey tightly with the other, and cursing at the same time xD Hehehe, i know i shouldn't be laughing but it's still funny :D
Went back to get our bikes, and we continued cycling here and there. The noob here, however, still lagged behind x: but it's alright for me actually, just apologetic to the people around me ): Continued cycling and cycling! Eventually, i was able to cycle more confidently than before, and wasn't as tensed! Hehehee, some 30% of my skills? HAHAHAA xD Had a short break and then we continued to cycle to other parts of Ubin! Afterall, i managed to cycle back safely :D i felt so accomplished luh, totally xD Finally, i'm not falling off my bike, Wootsie!
Was jiao-ing melvin with yighui while waiting to return our bikes, Lol, kinda afraid he'd take it seriously eh x: Cause i don't really jiao people in the class, let alone Melvinsiow, and even jiahui thought i was serious, ohohh x: Hahaaa, just hope he didn't take it seriously (: If not tio bankai that bankai king i will dieeexzxz!
Took the boat back, and went to some hawkercentre. Sugarcane ftw xD LOLOLOL!
Then zj and co. had their performance there! Hehehee, still think zj damn imba to carry his guitar all the way to Ubin and back.
Aftermath, we took a bus back to tmmrt! (: Occupied the back of the top deck of the doubledecker bus! So.. everyone started singing with the accompaniment of zj's guitar! Funny max watching that random guy gettng disturbed by us, hehehehe xD
Well, Spent a short yet fun and enjoyable time with 409 that day (: Thanks to everyone, esp. Mrcheng!

Trained to the airport with Jiahui, Zihui, Joey, Yinghui, Limhui, Jiaen, Kimberly, Michelle! :D Played hide and seek at the airport! (HAHAHAA, COOL RIGHT xD) Kay, i'm being lame, oh well, wanted to play runningman innitially but since we weren't able to prepare anything before hand, we decided on hide and seek at t3! :D Team with Zihui while Jiahui teamed with yinghui, and Joey with Michelle! Jiaen, Limhui and Kimberly were the catchers! Zihui and i totally got caught in a really short time for the first round ): Hahaha, but we had fun sitting and watching the catches roam about aimlessly~ However, we became zai for the next round :D Though we were doing weird things and sweating like a pig during our hide, we didn't get caught at all! :D
Kimberly and Michelle left after the game, and the few of us were left. Went Bk for dinner! So fun talking to the girls and laughing at jiahui! :D BANKAI GIRL. Hehehe, and this girl was talking abou g-string openly in the airport! Can't stand her, but it was really entertaining i should say xD
Trained home with them too! Everyone started shuffling somehow thanks to laizihui! :D
It's like a bunch of sotkia trying to shuffle at the platform and in the train x: talked about some flashmobs stuff too! Kinda cool? xD
So yeh, that's all for that day! :D

409 :D (credits to Zihui)

With Jiahui! (credits to Zihui)

(Pssssss, it's been sucha long time since my post went so long xD)

Was it 9th or 10th?
Was studying in the afternoon, but went out with my sisters and my sister's bf! Went town, walked around a bit, had b&j icecream outside heeren, then went for movie at cineleisure! M18, hehehee! I haven't watched a NC16 after 6 months after i'm allowed to, yet i went for a M18 xD NOT I CHAOLAO KAYYYY! It's cause i showed my sister's ic! Strongly against being called chaolao, Bleh, cause i'm young :D At least that Sakura person asked for my age when Sakura's 'child' is 12 and below -.- Hahahaa, i really dk if i should be happy or sad with that lo, but hehehee i prefer to be young~

Kay, so i just slacked off or studied for the rest of the days (: Yes, i'm leading a sad life.. Aishh.. ): Boring max, but i'm fine as long as i've my compie with me hehehee, but i've got a really bad feeling for it's remaining life time -.- It's been dying on me frequently thse days.. Saddening. I really don't want all my stuff in it too go 'POOOOOF!' and be gone luh. I'll like bang wall die? ):

Anyway, gonna go for Famine camp from Friday to Saturday! I bet i'm gonna crave for food x: Hehhee, but whatever, i'll use it as a chance to lose weight i hope? xD Spam water like mad, guarantee! Anyway i'll be in the same country and family as Jiahui, Jiaen, while Lenise will be with Yaozhong. Hehehee xD I hope it's gonna be fun (:

OHOHOHOHOH, And i'm really excited for Beast's Fanmeet in Singapore xD Though i'm that sad life b2uty that is unable to go for their fanmeet thanks to being poor and broke and whatever shit ): My life's to watch people around me enjoy their time with the boys and yeh, just watch and get envious.. Aish.. ): Well, but i do hope that Stephanie and Yaying can enjoy :D I shall try all ways to get to see them somehow? I hope i've got the chance.. Ahhhh, if not i'll just cry or bang the freaking wall laaa! I WANT TO MEET JUNHYUNGGGGGIEEEE, sincerely.
Especially when it's like 2July, right smack in the middle of prelim one D: Whyyyyyy ): Aiya, but idc la.. At least Airport please? (: Please wait for me, Junhyungie! xD
Okay, Random Picture of my Junhyunggie xD Oh, it's his twitter dp :D :D

And, yes prelim one, screw ya max! Prelim one is in 2 weeks time, yet i'm not done with anything, FMLTTM ): Ahh yet i still don't get the sense of urgency! All i can think off is 'ahh, studying is so irritating', 'walao damn tiring siol', 'restless max' -.- Siaoliao laaaaaa ):

By the way, It was kiss day yesterday! Hahaha it's a day celebrated in Korea anyway~
So.. I'm sharing some kisses here xD
Firstly, Yesung and Eeteuk's kiss!

Secondly, Yoseobie's Kiss!

Kay, then random kisses found in My Pictures xD
OWODOG's Kiss!

Another YESUNGIE's xD

Then, FTISLAND's MAKNAE, MINHWANNIE's Kiss!

Lastly, JUNHYUNGGIE's Kiss! :D

Hehehehehe xD
Alright, that's all! Hehehee, spent quite a long time blogging today~ Hmm, till the next time, Byeeee xD

2011-05-30T16:07:00.003+08:00

我以爲我可以
守護你一直到最後一絲呼吸

Today's olevel chinese. Finished it for the second time, yet i'm not confident at all. Paper one was not that bad, but two was kinda tough..
Frankly, i didn't feel any nervousness as i was doing the papers, i'm not sure whether it's a good thing or not, but i sincerely hope it is..
Well, i really don't want to retake that freaking exam again -.-
Since it's over, i'll just let it be, and pray for better results. I don't want to disappoint myself either, after so much of hard work..

I can't be bothered anyway.. I just feel horrible all day. I tried hard to push it all away while doing the papers, yes they went off, but once i'm done with the papers, everything just comes back to me.
So down, so horrible, so upset..
Had a short talk with hazel in between the papers. Don't worry girl, i won't really kill myself, hahah i just feel like it x:
Mos with the express chinese people, and i actually managed to laugh at yz, hahh, at least i could laugh (:
Much apologies to kimberly, i know you were really disappointed, real sorry for pangsehing you..
Met jiaqi while we were leaving, really miss her a lot, though we haven't been that close for sucha long time. Still think she's a nice girl though hahaa (:
Oh well, that's about it..
Sorry for being so sien, i don't want to be like that either, but i just can't help it.. I just feel very horrible.
I've been feeling like a living zombie, i can't laugh like how i could, i can't cry when i feel like it, all i do is to stare blankly and let my mind run.. and all this just makes me feel worse.. argh ):

Now, i just don't feel like doing anything, but i know there's english orals for prelim one tomorrow, and there's math that i've to complete by wednesday.. Fml much, i'm getting so sick and tired of living, so sick and tired of being me..

2011-05-27T16:20:00.004+08:00

我想我不會恨你
傷的痕跡留在我心底變成了秘密

Haven't been updating much these days as i simply can't find the time to.
Now, i'm here, but not in a lively mood.. Frankly speaking, i just realised that whenever i'm able to post something up here, i'm in some bullshit mood.
Feels like i'm screwing my blog with all the terrible happenings in life? Sucks max.
I initially wanted to blog about something happy, like spazzing, since i am currently in the 'ohmygawddd i am so going to spazz max' season. Despite that, i'm currently, like now, just fucking no mood to do anything joyful.
Hahah, but i'm still anticipating the MusicBack in awhile, i really hope it'll bring my mood up, just like how it was when i watched yesterday's mcountdown (: Pretty please?
And probably i'll be able to spam my blog with spazzes the next time round or something like that?

Well well, today is supposedly the last day of school, but sec4s still have to return to school next week for extra lessons. Other than that, there's chinese remedial tomorrow in preparation for the o'level chinese, o'level chinese on monday, and english prelim oral on tuesday. Also, i am quite sure that the holidays are supposed to be made use of wisely to study for prelim1. How much suckier can life be?

Trust me, that's just the minimum of suckiness life can provide you with. There are much more than that they have supply of.. Aish, that's how life is i guess? They provide you with life, and torture you with life, how ironic.. I just hope all these can leave me soon, it may not be the maximum life can give me, but i'm sure it's quite a lot. As much as i can feel myself suffering from it, as much as how heavy the load is on my heart and mind. There're so many things that's taking up my life, so many things that will make me down.. How is that going to help me? No way.
Feel so suicidal. No worries i won't do silly things. I just feel too sick and tired of my life, how much it sucks, how much it is killing me. Sorry life, but i really hate you, for screwing me this much. Fuck off, please..

Absolutely no idea why i'm so emotionally striked.. Just feel like being alone at times. Silently and lonely, and just try to be myself. That me that i've lost since a long time ago, that i cannot find it back anymore.. Aish, but i believe, humans change, so do i. It may be a good change in the long run?

Random and sudden addiction,

2011-05-18T19:14:00.002+08:00

一邊笑得瘋了一邊哭得累了
判若兩人

Isn't the bear cute? LOL. I need to be a mugger like that nerd bear soon.. if not i'll be left with no time to complete revising all my work ):
Kay, though i've got a million and one things to post on, i've decided to post about co first. Hahaha, a brief one though (:

Four years in nhco, percussion. Everyone i know in percussion, no matter whether juniors, seniors, or Isadora and huiwen, everyone played an important role (: It's really suckish to go for cca everytime to face the retarded conductor and play the same piece over and over again x: Yet, we somehow found joy in it as the days pass. (: It was really heartwarming to see everyone striving for excellence as one as syf nears. It's kinda cool :D You people are great!
Okay, hahahahaa it ended, yes! (: Uber brief right xD

Alright. I haven't been able to find time to post for many days, but i've really got things to post about! Briefly, again x:
Recess with Hazel baby was great (: I'm real sorry that i always couldn't help you out in stuffs ): It's really sad to hear your troubles and be unable to help laa.. But i'll always be hear when you need me, no matter if you need a listening ear, a shoulder to lean on, or a warm hug, you can just look for me kay (: I'll always be on standby mode for you! :D but really don't come say my yesung and xiaoyu look like whoever kayyyy, imma gonna cryyyy~
Went peninsula plaza with jiahui after chinese remedial, sorry to keep this woman waiting x: Went to get limhui's present and my new bag (!@#$%^&*). Spent the whole evening with her (: It's been quite some time since we caught up on each other.. like seriously x: however, i tend to enjoy the time with her too (: Things we talk s either random or engaging, but i would usually just laugh at her xD sorrrrryyyeee~
Bugis with Nicole, Stephanie and Cindy last saturday! :D Idk why but i'm always happy with these girls lol, maybe cause we spazz a lot like 24/7 xD but it's really nice to be with them laaa (: Gonna meet them again this saturday wooohoo!
Sunday, went sentosa and vivo to celebrate Limhui's birthday, belated though. Ball, talk and sea = sentosa. ljs, camp at that corner, talk = vivo :D Hahaha, talked about all sorts of crap la (:
Alright, that's almost all.. Suddenly feel very tired.

Yes, and confused. wtsssssssssss.

2011-05-05T20:19:00.003+08:00

噢全世界我只看見
你的視線你的一切

Guess i'm going to save my co post for the next time again. x:
Things has been complicated. I've been confused and lost. Yet, i am doing fine, i hope. At least i know i can look fine.
There is one thing in me, that haven't changed over the years. I forgive, but never forget. I don't know how one is able to forgive and forget.. I really don't. All i know is that i can't forget. Well, i've got no choice.
Sometimes, i don't understand myself. I do not know what i want, i do not know what i am thinking of. There are times where I can't even control myself..
There are times when i actually crave for a shoulder to lean on, a shoulder to cry on, but i may be unwilling to share my sorrow and troubles. That's unlike me, i know. I don't like myself bein like that. I can't stand myself being so dependent..
I've always been physically independent, but not mentally.. Probably i should learn to be mentally independent too..
However, i'm currently not, and this is bugging me. It sucks to feel so weak, sucks to feel so messed up, but i can't help it.. I really feel like slapping myself, i need to wake myself up and stop all this crap, but i don't think it'll work.
Now, all i could do is to laugh and smile everyday. I'm not sure whether all that happiness is true or not, but i hope it is. No matter what, i will keep smiling, keep laughing. Even when it actually hurts so much inside, even when my tears floods my eyes, i will continue smiling as though it's free.
This really sucks, this feeling sucks. Fmlttm.

I used to be so strong, so optimistic, so happy..

2011-04-27T20:09:00.000+08:00

這一雙手明明握住了什麽
一握緊卻煙消雲散
Life's been so busy these days, even after syf..
(Oh, shall post about co the next time!)
I feel that i'm lagging behind time, i can't catch up with anything.
Studies, Idols, and the whole of my life. I can't stand such life, but what else can i do?
I can only choose to live on with it since there's only this choice..
Prelim1 and Chinese O'levels is just round the corner. I know it very well that i should start working on them now, but something is pulling me back.
I've got no idea what it is, i just feel like lying on my bed and do nothing.
Guess i simply don't have the motivation to do anything. Even if i tried to start work, i'd eventually stop again..
That's actually bothering me -.- I don't get why this is always happening to me.
Looking at how yz can have the determination in finishing a chinese paper everyday makes me wonder wtfhs i am actually doing.
It's like, i want to do it, but i'm contradicting myself inside.. i hope i dont end up getting split personality. Like seriously..
Hopefully i can find some motivation to start work asap, if not by the start of next week (HOPEFULLYx1000000000), i'm going to force myself to work. No matter how hard it's going to be, no matter how dreadful it's gonna be, no matter how screwed my mood is going to be, i will just make myself do it.
If not i can kill myself already la. I should just stop getting affected by everything that's happening around me. Like those that has got no link with me, i get affected. Feel like some dumb ass sometimes.. -.-

Lastly, someone's really getting very bastard. Since i'm too nice to just say all this in your face, i'm just going to rant it all here. FLAME ME IF YOU WANT!
First. You flamed me for flaming you when i didn't flame you. Okay, if you considered that i really flamed you, fine, i'm fine with you flaming me. But the point is that all i said was totally said to you in your face before. So, i don't get it.
Second. You continue bringing the topic up and push all the blame on me that it was totally my fault. Why? I don't get it. Who was the one who invaded my privacy without consent? Do you think that is right of you?
Third. Obviously when someone does that to you, you'll start being cautious right? What's wrong with that. Kay, so you continued saying that i'm bad.
Forth. Now, you're trying to argue with me about the word 'sorry'. So you claim that you apologised first when 'it wasn't your fault'. Come on, i apologised too. Do you think i think it's my fault? I just wanted everything to stop. It's my fucking privacy la. -.-
Fifth. Still, i insisted not to lend it to you. So, idk how you suddenly knew my code. I seriously didn't know you knew it. Again, it's another privacy issue.
Sixth. I changed the code. Since you're unable to get in, i lent it to you. After trying many times in vain, everyone in the right mind knows the code is changed and will stop trying right? However, you still continued. Idk how many times you tried. Until you got it locked. I really forgot about my google account, do you know that? What if i guessed it wrongly? I won't ever be able to use it. Do you see the consequences of your childish actions?
Okay shit, i know i sound fucking petty. Chance. I just feel damn fucked up by THIS PERSON. I don't really care if you're gonna see this or not. I'm just damn pissed off by you.
Yes, since you want to flame me for flaming you so much and you actually 計較 so much, there you go. I just flamed you.

2011-04-23T17:58:00.010+08:00

小煜乖等你翻過了墻你會感到自由

對了, 我有沒有說過楊奇煜那個抱抱是我第一次這樣子抱一個男生? 哈哈是的, 真的是第一次(:
而且專輯和寫真的簽名都有愛心 :D
好喇, 讓照片說故事吧! (雖然有點遲了~)

2011-04-09T23:17:00.010+08:00

我的愛被你放空快什麽都沒有
要不要順便帶走我

YOYOYO :D 提到這個我還是很興奮哈哈哈! 過了快兩個星期了! 時間又飛快的閃過, 分分秒秒又不知不覺的流失了.

040111, 是愚人節! 但更重要的是, 我最愛的LOLLIPOP F在當天抵達新加坡(:
雖然我還在學校上課, 我卻無法掩飾自己沸騰的興奮及歡樂. 老實說, 我那天真的有些瘋了, 真是辛苦我學校同學了哈哈哈! 中午的班機嘛, 所以我沒辦法到機場接機.. ): 對不起了, 小煜敖犬阿緯威廉! 我也不想的, 但是上課總是得去嘛.. 但是我卻像個傻子一樣在班上不斷的傻笑(噗xD). 不要怪我, 我真的太想你們了所以才會這樣的!xD 畢竟三年多了耶! 可是我也搞不懂明明還沒見到你們就如此興奮~ 好喇, 所以一號當天就沒有去找你們! 很乖的在家裡做功課和些你們的信! 由收到我的心意嗎?! :D 希望你們有人真的念我的信噢xD

040211，前一晚12點多才睡的我早上4點就爬起來了, 因爲我還沒完成我的板板! (都怪我那噁心的老爸把我之前的給扔了! 但我又做了一個幾乎一模一樣的 :D) 5點左右就把該完成的都完成了, 趕緊洗個澡后便出門去了, 因爲我還得囘學校吖! 真是的!! 吼~ [啦啦啦..] 放學后的我連忙趕回傢, 把準備好了的所有物品都帶走, 再到Woodlands地鐵車站等Jasmine! :D 咱們倆都遲到了說, 時間真的太趕了! 之後, 我們這兩個路痴便艱苦的搭地鐵到了Stadium站去與Stephanie和Nicole會面. 四個人很快樂地邊吃午餐邊聊天后, 便步行到了新加坡室内體育館外等候.[啦啦啦..]Yinxuen也加入了我們這幾個瘋妞xD 看見四棒人形立牌的我們湧了上前, 拍了幾張照片 :D 話説怎麽連人形立牌都能這麽吸引人呐? 哈哈哈太帥了!
終于, 入場了. 可惜我們的位子都不在一塊兒 ): 但至少我有Nicole :D 哈哈哈! 我們的位子挺後面的, 但我們卻在活動開始的時候成功的移到了前面一點的位子, 因爲前面有空位~ 帶著我的板板, 相機, 手機和熒光棒, 我到了更接近舞臺的位子上(: 雖然依然不是很接近, 但好過沒有嘛, 是不是xD Anyway, 暖場的韓流舞蹈真的都把我的筋脈打開了說, 哈哈哈, 然後就是紅地毯時刻了! 帥慘了我的四棒! (主角是他們嘛xD) 但當然不能忘記小鬼, 何維健, 黃靖倫, 倪安東, 等等帥氣男藝人以及ELLA這位美奇姐喇~ 太棒了喇! 楊奇煜真的好帥~ 而且我真的好想你們喇~~ 就挑幾個藝人的表演來談談吧!:D 首先, 黃靖倫與何維健這一對新加坡兄弟(還是說寶貝?!),歡迎回到新加坡,你們的傢. 靖倫和Derrick的表演都好棒噢! 黃靖倫表演了兩手都關於媽媽的歌曲, 聲音真的好好聽, 而且還學會了儅我知道你們相愛的舞蹈呐, 讚:D 何維健則以他的轉音功力放在靖倫的我的媽上, 真的很不錯聼唷~ 還有他自己所帶來的儅我知道你們相愛, 空位和另一手動人心弦的曲目, 更重要的是有一位幸運的粉絲與Derrick的互動簡直是太太太太太親密了! 一定有很多羡慕的眼光吧哈哈哈~ 穿著藍色西裝外套的倪安東也表演了兩首很不錯的歌曲——散場的擁抱和Sorry that i loved you. 帥歸帥, 但他不太是我的Style唷哈哈哈哈! xD 接下來, SIGMA的歌曲其實都滿不錯的, 是哲宇嗎? 他好可愛!xD 小鬼的粉絲很多呐! 恭喜小鬼了吖, 但你怎麽唱錯歌詞? 呵呵呵! SHE那趴真的有些感人說! SHE好棒!
好喇, 是時候說說我傢LOLLIPOP F了~ 出場果然帥氣逼人, 話説怎麽能夠這麽帥呐!xD 呵呵呵! 誰知道, 在自我介紹時楊奇煜的Mic居然出了問題, '大家好,我是小煜' 完完全全是聼不到的.. 當時的我慌了一下. 但是眼看他把Mic換了我就好多了 :D 放空是第一首當晚表演的歌曲! 吖, 我很愛的一首歌呐! 現場聼的感覺果然過癮了許多哈哈哈! 好High唷唷唷 xD 而且都好久沒聽見小煜敖犬阿緯威廉的聲音了~ 放空放空放空(Y), 你們要不要順便帶走我吖?! xD 唔.. 之後就是四度空間了! Crazy go crazy go crazy 四度空間~ 觀衆席上的我又更High了說, 整個真的Crazy了喇而且間奏Dance break整個帥炸喇, 還有超完美的後空翻我看見了, 終于能夠看見你們的後空翻了!! 也太酷了吧?!!?!? 雖然威廉那側翻挺喜感的xD 好喇, 但是整晚最糟的事情發生了..楊奇煜的Mic又壞了-.- D: 也太衰了吧..而且還是楊奇煜耶, 好討厭!! 這一次影響可更大了 ): 整個Ending的'醒過來~~~~~~'和'You gonna back back back and welcome to my new life' 整個沒聲音-.- 當場我對快氣死了說..超過分的.. ): 也因此, LOLLIPOP F之後的幾個表演我都有些沒心情 ): 也不知道是失望還是氣憤, 總之心裡就有些不爽..x: 但之後也比較好了, 畢竟意外是有可能產生的, 並不是我們所能夠控制的嘛. 過了不久就是Se7en的表演, 心情也隨著他那些輕快的節奏提升了(: e樂大賞Ending的時候, 所有藝人都再度出現在舞臺上, 也當然少不了那四位LOLLIPOP們! 很開心看見他們嬉笑打鬧的樣子, 超可愛的喇呵呵呵呵xD 好愛他們噢~
在離場之後, Nicole與我又在一次和Jasmine與Stephanie會面. 這一次充滿了許多抱怨, 都是Mic的錯喇! 有夠惹人嚴的說..吼-.- 過了一會兒的'冷靜時間', 我們到附近的便利商店買了飲料, 然後就搭乘德士前往Cindy的傢! 那晚要感謝Cindy收留我們四只F迷xD 哈哈哈反正她也是咩~ 吃了泡面火鍋的我因爲實在太疲倦了所以很快就倒在她床上了x: 當時已經是淩晨兩點多了.. 哈哈哈而且吖, 我好像一個人霸佔了整個床耶, 超愧疚的說xD 但我真的不是故意的喇!!! D:

030411, 隔天早上五點多鈡, Steph把我叫醒了! 趕緊洗了澡便開始整理自己的東西, 等大家都準備好時就要出門了. 我們五個人分了兩輛德士趕著在六點鈡到IMM排隊. 果然, 我們準時到達場地, 也是第一批排隊的粉絲 :D 感覺好好, 真的只有我們耶~ 雖然天還是黑的, 大廈内外也都空無一人, 但是那種感覺還是很好xD 那時候的我們雖然都很累, 那兒的蚊子又多, 但是我相信爲了LOLLIPOPF那一切都值得的! 何況是這麽久沒見他們了, 興奮與期待應該都以掩蓋了所有的疲累. 就這樣, 我們邊聊天邊過時間, 慢慢的太陽公公也升起了, 排隊的人龍也逐漸家長了! F迷都是一家人 :D 排隊排了幾個鐘頭, 從大廈外派到大廈對面再到Garden Plaza. 在那儅兒我也購買了四度空間改版和嘻遊記! 很便宜在賣耶哈哈哈, 也沒有很喇, 但是的確比原價便宜了(: 原本要買旺旺送給敖犬的, 但誰料到超市缺貨了, 哈哈真掃興.. 但是我就決定購買一堆零食送給他們四個, 不知道他們有沒有吃掉呐? 希望有吧! 等著等著, 簽唱會的時間就愈來愈接近了, 心情也愈來愈興奮!
當天主持活動的DJ來到了現場, 準備從茫茫人海之中挑選十位F迷到台前與四棒玩遊戲. 謝謝大家的幫忙還有托我板板的福, 我被選中了:D 雖然有點麻煩得離開原本的位子到一旁等候, 但是想到之後能夠近距離看見他們就無所謂了喇哈哈哈! 之後, 何維健到了現場! 話説Derrick能算是新加坡之光呐, 真的有帥到喇!xD 又過了不久, 我心愛的四棒就到了! 敖犬, 小煜, 阿緯, 威廉 :D 四位帥寳都到了, 穿著的是今天是Holiday的服裝! 真的很帥喇, 回想起來也都興奮起來了說~
在自我介紹和小小的訪問之後, 他們就開始出題了, 是搶答題, 在十名粉絲中以搶答題選出八名上臺與他們互動! 那一刻我慌了說.. ): 本人自知也自認自己有反應遲鈍的現象, 唉.. 前兩題是楊奇煜出題, 選了一個我右邊和一個左邊的粉絲, 接下來是阿緯, 同樣的一左一右, 然後威廉也一樣! 就只剩下最後兩道題目了, 而且是敖犬出題.. 我更慌了x: 心理想, 怎麽辦如果狗狗再不選我我應該會當場崩潰之類的吧.. 超緊張又擔心的喇! 但是奇跡發生了~ 哈哈哈遲鈍的我居然成功搶答了, 我記得我的答案是攻心記! 呵呵呵, 謝謝莊豪全選我(大大大愛心xD) 而且吖, 因爲我拿著我的楊奇煜板板嘛, 所以敖犬選我的時候說的是 '就你了,楊奇煜.' 吖~ 然後在一旁的小煜便走向敖犬, 說'蛤? 幹嘛?' xD 怎麽會這麽可愛呐?!?! 當時, 我的確非常快樂, 並且松了一口氣(超松的!). 因爲我真的是最後一個了說! 我真的超感謝敖犬的喇, 那可愛的笨瓜~ 抽籤互動開始了, 粉絲抽的籤筒裝的是他們四個的名字, 還有'全部'. 而LOLLIPOPF那兒的裝的是動作. 我是最後一個嘛, 所以看完其他七位幸運粉絲的互動后才輪到我(: 話説大家都很開心呐, 感覺真好! 而且那四只這一次來到新加坡的心情也特別棒說, 所以我是真的發自内心的感到快樂 :D 輪到我了, 從我的籤筒内, 我抽中了小煜(哈哈哈我結婚了五年的老公xD)! 小鹿亂撞慘了, 哈哈哈哈 :D 而他則選中了'抱抱'. 天吖, 我真的有點愣住了, 我有嚇到耶, 之後我的臉就很害羞地脹紅了, 好糗噢!!!!!! D: 那可惡的楊奇煜還給我張開雙手要我主動去抱他! 害我整個不知所措, 也同時不由自主地向他靠近xD 噗, 好像是變態似的 x: 但我不是喇! 雖然很糗非常糗超級糗, 但是幸福是難以掩蓋的, 我真的感到好幸福, 謝謝你楊奇煜, 我愛你喇~ xD 而且抱著你的那幾秒仿佛停留了許久, 雖然天氣很熱, 但你給的溫暖總是不一樣, 你給的溫暖是暖在心理頭的! :D 然後吖, 謝謝小煜把金牌大風的禮包遞給我! 在下台前的那N次的謝謝, 希望你們大家都有聽到, 因爲真的很感謝你們:D
嗨翻天了有沒有xD 哈哈, 下臺后的我從台下看著你們, 你們一樣是散發著光芒的, 讚! 戴起了墨鏡的你們也都帥慘了, 哈哈哈而且敖犬的手做了什麽事吖! 怎麽摸小煜呐?! xD 哈哈哈幸運的四位粉絲也贏取了你們四個的墨鏡!! 超爽的喇~ 哈哈哈之後你們也開始仍海報了! 而那天走運的我也成功得到了一張, 謝謝你們(: (它現在可是在我可愛的墻上噢xD) 四度空間時間到!:D 這一次Mic不再壞了, 所以吖, 楊奇煜的'醒過來~~~~'也完美的呈現了! 果然是楊奇煜沒有錯, 就是這樣的小煜(愛心)! 四度空間之後就是從善爲樂時間, 謝謝你們的心意, 我也捐了一點, 愛心就是要不落人后 :D 你們最棒了xDDD 哈哈哈
在那之後, 你們便回到休息室休息了一會兒(: 我那時候的心跳依然快速跳動著, 感覺心臟病要發作似的, 呵呵呵! 但是我趕緊與朋友們把我們的東西都收拾好, 準備到臺上要簽名! 哈哈哈, 這一次的順序, 我沒記錯的話是: 敖犬, 威廉, 阿緯, 小煜! 楊奇煜又是最後一個了~ 興奮的與朋友們排隊上臺, 邊聊天邊哼唱著正在播放的歌曲, 許久沒有這種感覺了耶, 這是專屬LOLLIPOP的感覺!
嘻遊記和四度空間改版, 兩個都簽耶, 開心開心開心~ 好喇, 上臺了..
敖犬
我: 嗨敖犬!
敖犬: 哈囖. (眨眼)
我: 嗯.. 謝謝你剛剛選我噢!
敖犬: 噢? 哈哈
我: 這個是給你的! (把信遞給他)
敖犬: 噢好, 謝謝! (把手伸出來要握手)
我: 等一下~吖,不好意思. 還有這個! 哈哈送給你們的, 要一起吃噢! (把裏屋交給敖犬)
敖犬: 好的! (握手)
我: 敖犬, 謝謝你!
敖犬: (微笑)
威廉
我: 嗨威廉!
威廉: 嗨~
我: 威廉你好棒噢, 哈哈哈
威廉: 謝謝, 哈哈哈!
我: 嗯.. 要多點來新加坡好嗎?
威廉: 當然當然!
我: 那, 這是給你的! (把信遞給他)
威廉: 好, 謝謝你! (握手)
阿緯
我: 哈囖阿緯!
阿緯: 嗨 (燦爛笑容)
我: 你好可愛噢呵呵
阿緯: 哈哈謝謝噢!
我: (愣了兩秒)吖, 這給你! (把信遞給他)
阿緯: 好吖, 謝謝!
我: 嗯, 晚上見噢! (握手)
小煜
我: 嗯.. 嗨小煜! (羞xD)
小煜: 嗨~
我: 剛剛真的謝謝你! 哈哈哈
小煜: 噢 (微笑)
我: 不要在意昨天的事情噢!
小煜: 沒有吖, 我根本都沒有在意吖!
我: 哈哈哈, 好! 嗯.. 對了, 這個是給你的.. (把信遞給他)
小煜: 嗯, 謝謝! (握手)
我: 等一下見! 謝謝你! :D
小煜: 嗯! 掰掰!
我: 掰掰~ 謝謝~
下臺. 超開心的我整個就是'活蹦亂跳'xD
第一讚, 我握到了大家的手! 第二讚, 我不再糊塗的忘了把信交給任何人! 第三讚, 我的寫真和專輯的簽名都有愛心! 超感動的喇, 超級無敵大感動xDDDD! 而且而且而且, 敖犬向我WINK耶, 電慘了喇!! 還有威廉和阿緯的笑容, 我都被吸引住了~ 當然也少不了楊奇煜的眼神, 微笑, 語氣, 和又大又暖的手xD 哈哈哈哈! 愛死他們x100000000000000000000000000000000! :D
我們一夥人興高采烈地在一旁拍了合照后, 邊再次回到了臺前! 放眼望去是他們四個大男生認真的在為所有的F迷簽名.. 認真的他們好帥xD 哈哈哈其實不管做什麽只要是他們都很帥喇 :D
做Ending的時候又讓後援會的粉絲們爽到了, 呵.
而在他們離開場地時, 楊奇煜是那個拿著相繼拍我們的人耶~ 也就是說大家互拍囖xD 哈哈哈! xD 謝謝LOLLIPOP F, 辛苦你們了!
簽唱會過後則是他們在新加坡的最後一場表演了, 他們擔任才藝比賽的特別嘉賓! 但他們是壓軸演出, 所以也讓我們等待了幾個小時. 但是一切等待都是值得的喇~~ 哈哈哈因爲他們的表演總是不會令人失望, 而且大家的爆發力也是十足的!! :D
謝謝Lollipop F用心的表演著每一場演出, 謝謝你們以很愉快的心情來到新加坡吃喝玩樂, 見我們! 謝謝你們, 還有你們在新加坡最棒的導遊, Derrick何維健! :D Thank you xD
喜歡了五年, 那不算什麽, 我要再愛你們多五年, 然後再多五年至到天荒地老! 呵呵呵, 那你們也別再讓我等那麽久再來看我唷, 不要欺負我了嘛xD
謝謝你們, Love yaaaaaa! (:

下次再把一些照片發上來吧!:D

嗯.. 超愛LOLLIPOP的喇.. 我來回顧一下我和他們的互動吧xD 哈哈哈回想這些都能讓我感到很幸福說~~
楊奇煜.
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈@抱抱xD
握手x3
莊豪全.
Winkkkkk!
其實我親到他的胸(衣服喇!)
握手x3
劉俊緯.
salute xD
握手x3
廖亦崟.
握手x2 O: (難過)
廖俊傑.
搭肩 (OMGXD)
小小聊天
拉我手
握手x2
邱勝翊.
(其實我們超沒互動的-.-) LOL.

好喇, 我要睡了, 下次發圖再瘋一瘋吧, 噗xD
握手x2
廖俊傑

2011-04-09T22:53:00.003+08:00

冷靜不能解決我們最根本的問題
瘋狂才能至好我們骨子裡的劣根性

Hey, i've been wanting to blog since a week ago, but obviously i had no time for that ):
Kay, a brief rundown of my boring life, and i'll start my fun, exciting, superb, daebakkkk last weekend (: (Alright, i really needa improve my vocab -.-)
E-learning day simply failed cause i didn't manage to do a single one, and went for co instead. (i wanted to do something more useful and exciting!) Kay, i was bouncing with joy that day! Totally in high spirits despite the horrible plans for the day.
Managed to finish 5 rounds around the school in <12.30min? dont really know the exact timing ): Wooots, Fabienyang keeps me alive (Y).
Boring wednesday, i've got no memories of it x: Lol!
Sucked ttm for napfa on thursday.. how did i mange to deprove that much -.- Ahh demoraliseddddddddd. And yes, i really need to lose weight. I'm bloody gaining too much weight D: I FEEL FAT, ARGH.
Then yesterday.. Yes, it's friday(friday friday~). Rushed home after school to go jb with my sisters, mum and aunt. (: I didn't think it was fruitful until i ended my day today -.- Lol. The best thing i bought was baviphat masks with FTI on it LOL xD ANDANDAND honggi and jonghoon's pictures were like at the entrance of the store LOL! Hot little hongstar :D Alright, and i bought a top, and food(FML.). It was enough compared to today, where i wasted my blooding fking time to go there (this time with both my parents ONLY _|_). kay. so yes. i got literally nothing -.-
That's all, and i need to finish my homework tomorrow. Aish, sad life.
Kay bye.

You're gonna meet my (Y)x100000000000000 weekend in my next post. :D

2011-03-25T22:19:00.002+08:00

我曉得時間如雪有時候會覆蓋一切
但是真愛依如倔強會重生的綠葉

Happy birthday Chunyi, Joey, Alastair (:
This week have been quite down. There must be something that makes me feel as if i've been thrown into an empty cell, where the walls and air are deadly cold..
I wanted to be as strong as how i was before, but probably i can't reach that extend at such a depressing period of life.
Anyway, homework has been increasing and so does lessons, remedials, and cca. Syf is just round the corner.. and it's really stressful to have to practice for 4 days a week. It'll squeeze me dry even before the actual central judging i guess..
i'm not confident in handling all these academic and cca stress and enormous pressure which've been pressing on me for quite some time.

Will be out this weekend, thus having to complete the stack of homework as soon as i'm able to.. Yet, with all the ups and downs that led my way today, i'm left with nothing but a heavy heart that stops me from doing my work. Fml for feeling as such.. today is the worst of this week of feeling like that. To what extend is it possible for a heavy heart to press me so heart that it actually stops me from continuing my work and even making breathing hard?
I need a rest, an early night tonight.. I wish i'll be better after i wake, but what if i dont? What if i continue feeling as such forever? My life's gonna be shortened so much.. -.-
Guess i need motivations and inspiration for living on well and better. Where's myself? I want the 'me' in the past to be back.. I'm not used to my current self. I feel like a fucking idiot, i'm a bitch, i'm so disgusting.. I don't even know how to be happy now, where had my optimist mind went to? why and when did it leave me, in the first place? I need it back, i really do.
It's being kind of hard to live like that, it's torturous, and tense.

Hmm.. Heechul's tweet made me even upset. Tt must've been hard to accept a scar on his face. ):
And yes, this adds on to my load. I really do hope that as next weekend approaches, i can be much joyful than this since my 楊奇煜 will be in town.. I can't go looking for him with such horrible feelings within me right?
Please, allow me to feel much better by then!

2011-03-18T21:00:00.002+08:00

一首無聲的合弦
奏著永恒不變愛你的每一天

Hmm, i'm not sure if i'm feeling better, but i do know that no matter what, i still have to get on with life.
Haven't been myself lately.. Not thinking the way i used to, not talking the way i used to and not feeling the way i used to.
It just seems like everything has gone wrong, but i can't be sure if the problem lies on me, or my surroundings.
Probably i am the one?..

Well, since life goes on, i shall talk about my horrible march holidays..
It's Friday already, like in a blink of an eye! The holidays is ending.
I've been going back to school for four days and not even having a break for myself!
Monday and Tuesday was asthetic camp that had tired me all out, but with ups and downs inbetween. I'm glad, at least, i was quite confident in my playing on tuesday (:
Hopefully i did well, i felt so, hahaha! And dinner that night was great (: Percussion is the love yeh.
Had to return to school for english oral on wednesday morning. Did extremely poor.. -.- poonie totally criticised like mad.. but i was alright with it since i know i really sucked at it.
Slacked around with the girls before going for lunch, and came back for awhile of bball, and went to physics remedial.
Still, i was as tired as before ):
Went for exchange with hcico. hwachong is really no joke, kind of envious of their co room la, it's like >twice the size of ours -.-
Got to know the percussion guys there, hahah quite nice people i should say (:
however it's saddening that oce didn't go to school that day since it was the holidays hahah, if not i may be able to see him? It's really been quite some time since we last met kay hahaha!
Well, yah that was my horrible holidays..
What i did today was just homework, and i haven't completed them -.-
Irritating..
Sad life of mine, lalaaa..
I should get use to this, if not i may change, into a different self. And i don't want that to happen..

2011-03-15T22:25:00.003+08:00

雨在風中風在雨裡

你的影子在我腦海徭役

I'm simply not living well.. everything in my life is just wrong.
Everything, like seriously.
I can't express myself, nor there's anyone out there who would be willing to listen and understand my rants.
Like, why would people want to know what i'm thinking and feeling when they don't give the fucking damn about this human being over here?
Who cares? Like, no one.
There's no trust, no care, no help, nothing.
That's my life, thank you people, for allowing me to get to know my life more and more. I kind of deeply appreciate it.
Each and everyone of you, thanks uh.

2011-03-04T23:34:00.002+08:00

我買不起我不確定
絕望谷底有沒有奇跡
Currently, i'm quite emotional.
I've got no idea why, but i just feel very down.. Many thoughts ran through my mind, as i tried to control my emotion from breaking me apart.
Such things shouldn't be posted up here, so i shall just keep it to myself. Smart people may find it somewhere around? But just not here.

Well, i shall try cheering up a little to tell stories of my sad life (:
Went thktv last saturday to celebrate cindy's birthday with nicole and steph, really enjoyed the day even though i'm left with sore throat after that.. A happy very belated 18th birthday to her!
Anyway, the whole week was left for studying for common test. Deprieved sleep for each day, and was left with tiredness after each day.. Actually, i've worked hard, but i could tell that my results may not be showing that all rounded. Flunked my humans and chem i guess.. ):
I shall be optimistic to it, just like my past three years and dont think of it to pessimistically.
Hmm, today marks the last day of common test(: I'm supposed to be smiling from ear to ear i think, but.. not quite. I'm not in the mood for that.
I've been rather horrible these few days, i kind of had extremely low EQ. At least to me, and my normal self, these days are really of extreme low EQ. I get frustrated and down quite easily. I get irritated by tones or words of others easily too.. No idea what's gotten into me.. ):
I almost hated everyone in the world once.. -.-

I'm currently going to.. intro songs, yes, nice songs that worth more listeners and me to promote. New and old songs. Going to be quite a few i guess, in random order.

1. 太完美 - SuperJunior-M

2. 命運綫 - SuperJunior-M

3. 拼什麽 - 羅志祥

4. 獨一無二 - 羅志祥

5. A little too not over you - David Archuleta

6. 最佳男配角 - LOLLIPOP F

7. 散場的擁抱 - 倪安東

8. Waiting for You(널 기다리며)- Yesung예성

9. And I Love You(너를 사랑하고) - Yesung, Luna

10. It has to be you(너 아니면 안돼) - Yesung예성

11. 寂寞不痛 - ALin

12. 情人結 - 張芸京

13. 儅我知道你們相愛 - Derrick何維健

14. 變化 - Derrick何維健

15. 空位 - Derrick何維健

Kay, Currently like that. If not i'll like spam every song x:

2011-02-27T15:15:00.000+08:00

我的心變成了口袋的一面
Just for you 不停地給不停地給

Coming week's common test, so obviously i'm supposed to be studying but i got the urge to blog x:
However i shan't do such stupid things, (though i'm currently doing so x:)
I'm going back to study nowwwwww, and shall post next weekend hopefully?
Byeeeeeee, model student's off the study! :D

2011-02-20T14:11:00.003+08:00

就當做最後是我不愛了
關上門以後就算愛你又如何

School is getting thouger and tougher, and the days are getting more and more tiring..
Seriously, i've got no idea which day i'm going to fall off the cliff i'm approaching now.
It is very hard to cope with the enormous stress that's on me, and all the different subjects i suck at!
Tell me, what can i do?
Common test is also here to stress me again! WTS ):
fml laaaa, it's not as if i've been slacking my days away and did nothing, nor i haven't been listening attentively in class.
But i just can't make it, is that my fault? I guess not, and i hope not.
Adding on to it is the Syf in April. Both pieces are totally not up to standard, and we're getting scoldings and naggings almost every practice..
How horrible and nhco get? I know the sec4s are trying hard, but i can't see the junior's effort. Not at all.
Ignoring the other sections, percussion juniors are already bad enough. However, i'm glad they're putting in more effort now than before, after the senior's scoldings.
At least, they're improving. What about the rest? -.-
Argh, irritating.

Anyway, enough of the horrible school life.
(Although my current life is simply all about it -.-)

Ahh, i'm going to say that, SS3 Official bromide is seriously large. The difference compared to other posters is like.. Wowzx xD
It's like double the size of other posters la! Aizaizx, and i just realised that after i bluetacked it on my wall x:
Cooool, but i really want a Lollipop F Poster now, desperately ):
And prolly another FTIsland? Then my wall will be complete xD
Heheehee!

Anyway, classtee stuffzx are settled, hoodie too :D
Kind of happy for that!
Also, my new school shoes! Finally, i've gotten rid of that horrible pair of school shoes x:
That is a little mean, but it's true okayy! I wore it for not long and it's cui like idk what -.- Lousyzxzxzx!
Even though my new school shoes isn't kappa, cause the stupid queensway kappa never sell kappa shoes (like wtf?), so i got everlast instead.
I'm hoping the school field will stop flooding so that my shoes won't be covered with mud! I'll be mad if it does D:
Alright. Went to kimberly's place after math remedial yesterday :D
Shorty kimberly has got a nice house (:
Finished two of the math papers, Spazzed, Monopoly dealed, Monopolied, dinnered, 愛似百匯ed, and watched michelle perform! :D
Seriously, i enjoyed the day, thank's kimberly, jiahui, yaying xD
It is fascinating how we were able to complete two math papers even after having a morning filled with math xD Lol!
And how we can play monopoly deal with no winners! xD
Thanks to Kimberly's parents for the really great dinner, hehehehe i haven't ate homecooked food for quite sometime (:
Ahh, anyway yesterday was daebak la :D

Also, went to catch Michelle's performance! (I'm going to be another Buannie stalker!)
I haven't watched such performance before eh, seriously!
The stiltwalkers(sp?) were really damn zai, but those stunts were simply dangerous -.-
Then 電音三太子damn cool, i didn't know singapore had this until yesterday! I though only my lovely tw had got such cool stuffzxzx xD
Hahahah, and there's even Sorry Sorry for it's music (Y)
Okay, the point is Michelle la! Who the hellzx can dance Chinese dance until like that! xD
She's really super pretty laaazxz! I'm going to be Buan's number one fan :D
Hahahaa!

Lastly, you people should go watch SJM's teaser. 太完美(Y)
ehehehehehee, though Yesung isn't in SJM, but it's alrightttt, they're still very very great :D
I shall post the full mv here when it's out, provided i've got the time, hehehee!
Kay, i shall stop here and go and do my homework :D

2011-02-04T15:28:00.019+08:00

回憶過去痛苦的相思忘不了
爲何你還來波動我心跳

Happy lunar new year people!
Since i've got no cny to celebrate this year, i'm kind of a very free x:
i'll concentrate these time to do important things instead, hehehe! But i guess they're not quite important actually -.-
Forget it, let's continue talking about SS3. xD
My previous post was abit.. situational x:
I've been spamming on what shit happened to me and such, but i didn't talk about the concert itself! wts was i doing, seriously..
Maybe it's because it's been too long since the last time i've made an actual fanaccount ):
Poor me D:
Now, though it's really sad for me to be unable to go for second show, i went for the first show!
The whole concert started off with Sorry, Sorry. Donghae flew up! :D
Then, the round thing at the centre stage opened up, having all the other members surrounding donghae!
I was already out of my mind by then, so i couldn't remember what happened too clearly ):
I guess i was dying in the pen for the whole of no other, cause i don't have a single memory of it x:
But i swear Don't Don was extremely daebak (Y). Henry's violin solo ftw! Rocking off the show with Don't Don was definitely a very good one! hehehee, SJROCKER xD
Wasn't paying too much attention to the songs anymore ): Either i was in my own world, or i was dying in the pool of people -.- I couldn't even find my way to yaying, jerlin and co. la! Poor me stucked in the crowd all by myself. fml ):
Kay at least i managed to see my lovely boys la xD
Ah, i remember hyukjae flying up right in front of me! He looked very serious that night, didn't really joke around too much ):
hmm.. the prerecorded videos that were played were so great, the boys looked so good xD
I'm totally unable to put the concert in sequence! RAHH.
I'll just go by what i think of kay :D
Ryeowook's solo of one fine spring day was totally super smoothing! Sungmin as his guitar accomplice was even better, hehehee eyecandy x2! Isn't it great?
Ryeowook look so small sized, anyway! and Sungmin simply has got the little kid face! Ahh, cute xD
Kyuhyun's solo with 新不了情 was so very super touchingzxzx! Seriouslyyyyy xD
He sang it so well! :D (ANYWAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY KYUHYUNNIE' 0302)
Sungmin's dance solo was so emozx, cause he totally got molested by the female dancers. damnit!
Hyukjae and Donghae too! The dancers are so irritating laaa, touch touch touch! D:
Henry made his stage with bieber's baby! Henry looks so hot seriously hahahahh though he isn't quite my type to like x: Then Zhoumi had 瀟灑小姐 which made the whole indoor stadium go high!
Siwon sang some english song, i forgot what, but he look damn funny xD Sorry but i still think that siwon look spastic though i know the fact that he's damn handsome hahahaa! But no doubt his abs was (Y) xD
Whatever songs inbetween x: I forgot laaaaa D: All i know was that yesung kept going all over the stage but not to my area, hmph ):
Shake it up was so good, other than the fact that it was hankyung's voice when eeteukkie sang ):
KANGIN'S PART WAS SO SAD, seriously.. (i was crying for nothing before that, but that part made me really cry for a reason!) Kimyoungwoon, we miss you! Really..
Then it was Yesung's solo! :D I was crying full time for his solo x: Lol, but it was touching, when the whole stadium sang It has to be you with him :D I bet he was touched too, hopefully! Though my view of him was his back for the full time of his solo, i still loved it! How can his back view be so (Y)(Y)(Y)?!!? Seriouslyyyyy!
Yesungbabyyyyy xD awwww.
Ah, Heechuls Ladyheehee was hot like fuck, seriously xD and also Shindong, Donghae and Eunhyuk's beyonce xD Gosh they are wearing heels and running around! I can't even walk properly -.-
Okay, Bonamana was so very hot too xD
Singapore fan still sucks, from my point of view. Encore was damn super woootzxzx except for the shouts before it.. How lousy ):
With their cooking?cooking! costumes, our lovely vegetables were out for their show! :D
Of course, my broccoli boy was like so very adorableeee! :D
Then, tomatowook look like some toddler xD Chilichul looked abit wrong though O:
Hot cabbageteuk and his smile on his face was sooooo (Y)!
plusplusplus xD
Anyway, i'm glad heechul and eeteuk was alright after the minor accident that occured ): heartbreakkkkk! The past definitely made it hard for them to accept any reminders of it.. ): poor them..
Back to the concert, water splashing time for the boys! During Wonderboys? I think so.. Hyukjae was like running around with two uncapped bottles thinking where he's going to splash them O: Lol xD
And here comes my lovely boy, who looked so choding with his smile and playfulness, coming to splash the water at us. Okay i'm going to spazz for a moment at this. YOU KNOW!? HE UNCAPPED IT, DRANK A MOUTHFUL AND SPLASH, THE WATER SLAPPED MY FACE. LOL! But the point wasn't that my fringe got screwed, but it was YESUNG! AHHH Look at his faceeeeee, so adorable like OMFGZXZXZX! Hehehehehee xD ahhh, though he ignored me full time, that moment was simply too great for me to forget :D
Seriously, He's So Very Adorable!
Oh, and he was all around the stage having interactions with other fans for the whole time except for this! ): imagine how envious i was, i was dying for him man seriously, though the other boys were popping out time and again before me and it was shiok enough x:
Kay, splashing here and there blablabla..
Then the concert was really going to end.. As eeteuk started his ending words, we carefully listened to him, though 98% of what he was saying was simply alien language to us x:
Ah, ten something retarded happened.. TO ME. ONLY ME WTS ):
Kay, it was like.. Eeteuk was talking, and Yesung, whom i've laid my eyes on for a very long time, suddenly waved. And there i was, suddenly screaming for him x: At that moment, many eyes turned and stared at me as if i was some crazy bitch -.- PLEASE LAAA YESUNG WAVEDDDDD FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE I'M NOT A CRAZY BITCH, I JUST.. I JUST SAW HIM WAVEEEE!
Oh, and the first day's got 2 thumbsup! :D (though the second day got 4 D:) Well, Yesunggie and Hyukjae did the thumbs up on the 29th! OHMAN YESUNG IS SO HOT, SO I'LL JUST IGNORE JIAEN'S HYUKJAE, BLEHZX.
Kay thumbsup for all Singapore ELFs, thumbs on their lips, and Hyukjae went put his thumb on my yesung's lips afterwards, and as yesung return's his 'thumb kiss' hyukjae totally swept it away. MEAN HYUKJAE! D:
Ahhhh, and as eunhyuk ran away, MY LOVELY YESUNG ENDED THE CONCERT WITH A FLYING KISSSSSSS! OMG SPAZZING IN ACTION, BUT WHATEVER LA HOR xD YESUNG, I CAUGHT IT xD I DID heheeheheeee xD
Kay who wants to spazz can simply contact me, i'm always here to spazz xD Lol.
And with that, i'll end my story of SS3 Singapore Show1 :D
Some pictures taken or koped from the internet (including some that are actually not from Singapore's Show)(:
Credits to yaying, jerlin, cindy, myself, etc.
Enjoyyyyy, and SPAZZZZZZZZZZZ xD (in random order)

2011-01-30T21:11:00.004+08:00

說了再見才發現再也見不到
能不能就這樣忍著痛淚不掉
Ah, so many things happened these few days..
It's been so dramatic, but true. Now, i'm left with a feeling that is totally mixed up. There isn't a word i can use to describe how i feel currently.
I'll start with something solemn.. Hopefully not everyone is reading this cause seriously, this isn't meant to be shared with all, i just needed a space to speak up x:
Going to my grandmother's place every sunday was usual, but last week, we made our way to the hospital after going to her place..
The sight that awaited me was really painful, it was hard to look at the state my grandfather was.
He was in bed, weak, and cold. He couldn't breathe on his own, so he needed a 100% oxygen tank. He wasn't able to eat, so he had tubes to send glucose and water to his body..
Even then, conflicts started amongst my uncles, cause one of them simply sucks to be stubborn and disgusting x: anyway, it was frustrating to see them quarrel at them time, when their own father is in such a dangerous situation.. -.-
Well, so later that day, they decided to send my grandfather back home, even though we were told that he may just leave us on the way back home..
What i saw, was him having much difficulty breathing when he was still in the hospital. But, the first sight i saw when he was brought back home, was that he wasn't taking in breaths anymore..
i felt so wtfs.. but the peramedics said that he's pulse is still there.
Anyway, i'm glad he passed away peacefully, hopefully when i look up in the sky at times, he'll be up there smiling back at me (:
i really hope so..
Spent my week at his wake and such, tears kept getting triggered at the same time.. Even though he's left us for good, i just can't bear the fact that he's left us..
Please live well up there, 外公!

Alright..
Then, the contrast, is Supershow3 Singapore. Went for show#1, but not #2 ):
Honestly, i haven't had enough of them, i've started to miss them..
Went out at 7plus to meet yaying and travelled to the stadium. As expected, the queue was already quite long.. ): Cindy came in awhile, then nicole, jerlin and eli. Waited and waited, talked and played. Yaying managed to change to a penA ticket, if not she'll be lonely at penB x: However, i bet it wasn't a good decision cause penB seems better somehow ):
Spent my time texting away and talking to them instead of doing stuff that i brought there. Screw the coordinators that made me wait for 3hours++ to go to the toilet -.- Totally sien.
Anyway, many thanks to kimberly and xiaotong for purchasing the merchandises for us!
It was like the second time i went to the toilet.. Since we only had 15minutes, yaying and i ran out to find kimberly and xiaotong to place our orders for the merchandise. Then, we ran to the toilet and as we were running back, kimberly called me saying that they've finished buying the merch, so i ran to find her again to collect the stuffs. Thankfully they were the first few in the queue like totally!
Ah, and that made us the only ones that have the merchandises in the queue xD Coolzx.
Waited and waited again, but the time seems to pass by very quickly, and had our lunch/dinner of macs cause Cindy's friend helped to buy it!
Anyway, after quite sometime later, we were going into the stadium already! Lol at the bag checks, but i'm glad it was so slack (:
Went in and i faced my worst but also best of the day. I can only say that, it sucked to the max. Seriously.. The starting was bad enough, having cristin, nicole and cindy at the front barriers and jer, eli, yaying and i at the back. fml, seriously -.- Then as the concert started, i somehow got lost in the crowd.. Screw the singaporeans that simply squeezed like fuck. Sorry for using crude words but i'm seriously pissed off. There was once that i couldn't even feel the ground underneath me man, no joke, i was floating in the air, cause of those idiots. Seriously hating singaporeans more and more! _|_
And that made up of half of my time in the concert. Finally, i manage to get back with the girls, but it still sucked cause people were still pushing at the back, and i was forever stucked in the middle. Now i regretted not taking the first train, knn.
I really wanted to be at the barriers x:
Then idk why, i suddenly felt like crying, no exact reasons for me to cry, but i just felt like it and i started crying.. i just felt weird.. If i'm not wrong, i cried for the duration of 3-4 songs x: Thanks jer for being there anyway, Lol!
Anyway, i should say that the concert was a total success, even though i really suffered in there -.- I'm glad that the boys were very happy with us! Even though they totally bohiu me..
AHHHH MY LOVELY ADORABLE BROCCOLI BOY YESUNG TOTALLY IGNORED MEEEEEEEEEEE D:
But at least his water splashed onto me la xD
And Nicole got Yesung's bottle, and Jerlin got the watermelon that Ryeowook threw..
Ahh, lucky them!
Cried again after the concert ended, idk why, but i just felt very mixed..
Like, angry+happy+sien+sad+high+shiok+empty+irritated being mixed together.
Cried like some stupid kid there, seriously, thinking back it was a little malu x:
BUT I SERIOUSLY WANTED TO CRYYYYY! D:
YESUNG IGNORED ME TOTALLY.. ):
Aishhh.. but no doubt i enjoyed the show they had for us, cause they're SuperJunior! Yesung, Eeteuk, Heechul, Ryeowook, Siwon, Shindong, Donghae, Kyuhyun, Eunhyuk, Sungmin. (:
I've started to miss them anyway.. ):
Now, they've become even more important to my life again. More and more important!
Hopefully i'll post some of the picts the next time(:
LADYHEEHEE and BEYONCE(S) is the hot topic Lol, and our lovely vegetables xD

Bye all, please love superjunior, and most importantly, treasure what and who you have beside you.